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Sunday, April 30

hmm.. i think i m like a pest to many.. haha.. go get a super powerful pesticide..

znew left a note @11:56

haiz.. helloe people..

let me tell you the story of jayden..

hmm.. poor jayden.. i forgot to help him close his eyes before leaving to study.. and after hours of reading.. i came back to find him in coma.. hmm.. haiz.. and sooo.. we were looking for switch to open up his brain to carry out any rescue work possible.. and so desperate.. we were glad to see a qualified personnel nearby.. and so i approached him for help.. he helped us revived jayden.. thank you uncle..

i m so glad my dad left the set of 'pumps' in my car..

hmm.. nway.. we went sch today.. i was too bored.. remember i mentioned that in my previous entry? haha.. so we went sch.. mich for her chem consultation with wei..

i love driving long distances.. at least for now.. that's why i din mind sending wei home juz now..

hmm.. nway.. mich n i went heartland mac.. haiz..

we talked about underage smoking.. haiz.. why is the school or even the workplace not doing anything to stop this unhealthy scene?

hmm..

and..

if that's what you want things to be.. i'll grant you your wish.. not because i give up.. because.. i think.. yah.. nvm..

and..

i truly regret to see that things turn out this way even though nothing much was done.. i also dunnoe how it turn out this way..

hmm..

and..

haha.. nvm.. i shall just put everything aside as of now..

znew left a note @00:40

Saturday, April 29

i m soooo bored..

no one is online.. no one is online.. no one is online.. no one is online.. no one is online..

haha..

i dont feel like starting on marketing.. i dont feel like starting on marketing.. i dont wanna start studying marketing..

i dont wanna close my eyes.. coz it was really horrible.. haha.. i think i m crazy.. i dreamt of something.. which.. i hope it isnt true.. and then started thinking anyhow.. hahaha.. yes.. anyhow..

omg.. i'd rather waste my time chanting away here.. hahaha.. alamak..

nway..

aiyar.. nothing.. i forgot what i wanted to say..

omg.. this entry is just so shallow..

hahaha.. and incoherent..

alalalalala..

maybe washing jayden is a good exercise.. hahaha..

all those wishes n dreams willl NEVER come true la.. haha.. they are too idealistic.. hahaha..

arghhh.. where art thou.. my dear friends!

cheryl ng! hurry up come back from bangkok.. u go and enjoy.. while i suffer in misery here..

znew left a note @15:14

haa.. i forgot the existence of this nice song.. till someone sang it on tv last night.. here it is..

不用一首歌的时间我就爱上你
音乐没停止　思念就开始
如果爱情是个游戏　我愿输给你
想不到等待是个孤独的玩意
我爱你　我爱你　不过是三个字简单地　
认真地　吓坏了我自己
没问你　就爱你　我不是最好的
对不起　请你准我高攀了你
看着你　我竟然看不起自己
遇见你　竟没有离开的权利
有了你　之前的爱只是练习
为了准备更好对你
两个人抱在一起　究竟需要多少力气
上帝都不明白我哪里来的勇气

znew left a note @13:06

read it from somewhere.. haha.. wow.. i actually remembered i read smth like this somewhere some time ago.. and went to look for it again..

missing someone is a terrible but at the same time.. sweet feeling..

you will be sitting around wondering if you meant anything to him or her..
[i know i dont..]

thinking if he or she ever cares about u..
[i know the answer is no..]

rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him or her..
[never will be.. if it ever does.. wow..]

looking out of the window hoping that he or she will surprise u by appearing downstairs..
[never ever will that happen anyway.. so dont bother even looking..]

sitting in front of the television but thinking of him or her missing the final episode of your favourite show..
[isnt that always the case.. hahaha.. no la.. i seldom watch tv anyway..]

laying on your bed, thinking of the last time you went out together..
[that was eons ago.. and what occassion was that?]

thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future..
[ya.. definitely nice.. but things are no longer the same ya.. haha.. anyway.. all those in sq brackets are so crap..]

logging on to the internet hoping to see him or her online..
[haha.. modern lifestyle man..]

when you realise that he or she isn't online and did not return your sms, u will start worrying if he or she is okay..
[hmm.. will be okie one.. i know.. juz a matter of wantin n not wantin to reply.. haha..]

missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.. it exposes you to loneliness.. it teaches you how to cope with being lonely and let you know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness..
[cope with loneliness? i know there's smth called emptiness..]

sometimes it feels good to miss someone.. you know that you really care and you indulging the feeling of loving or caring for him or her..
[haha.. too much indulgence dont do you any good.. but so..]

but missing someone and not knowing if he or she is feeling the same is terrible..
[aiya.. ans=no..]

you feel as if you are being left alone..
[soo?]

so if you miss someone, tell him or her and let them know..
[sooo? does it make a difference?]

at the same time, ask if they miss you..
[so thick-skinned sia.. know answer already still wanna confirm issit.. want a real hard blow right? where gort ppl so crazy one.. wanna get hurt right in the face.. haha.. wuliao issit.. or too strong?]

don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid..
[it has already become i think.. no la.. kidding.. hahaha..]

if you are the one being missed and you know it, let theother party know..
[aiyo.. for? aiya.. want stuffs only la.. not emotional needs..]

if you miss him or her too, tell them..
[for what?]

don't let them wait..
[they arent waiting..]

hahaha.. this is soo crap.. was too bored.. too high..
too depressed.. too disappointed.. too disgusted.. too demoralised.. too disturbed.. too distracted.. too deformed..

wow.. i m so impressed with my own vocab.. haha.. crap!

oh anyway.. i dont quite agree with the way you're handling the whole matter.. coz.. you're kinda solving the whole matter at the expense of a friendship it seems..

znew left a note @04:40

helloe all..

the material science paper today was do-able.. i stress that.. i only have myself to blame for if i dun get good grades for this.. which i already think i wont.. haiz.. why so goondoo.. why so stupid.. why so distracted.. why dont wanna focus.. right till the point i was writing my answers.. i m still not focussed.. this is reallllie bad.. hahahaha..

hmm.. anyway.. had dinner with mich.. her crawford western food.. it's nicE! okie.. it's at crawford lane.. u turn into the hdb estate with a name-crawford court.. yepz.. the name of the stall is happy chef western food.. haha.. the sauce is cool.. reallie..

okie.. sent her home.. then picked seng n siang up from hougang.. and blah.. went bugis village to shop.. bought nothing for myself.. haha.. nway.. details shant be included since it's not over yet..

hmm.. haiz.. sian sia.. last paper already.. no more chance to improve grades other than this one last shot.. hmm.. haiz..

hmm.. and i sincerely hope.. and truly hope that i will focus this time round..

er xin.. why am i doing this to myself.. why am i ruining my own future like that..

nway.. jayden has 4 injured spots on his butt.. haiz.. i underestimated the sag of his butt..

hmm.. sickd of everything.. tired of taking the initiative.. i will stop.. at least attempt to.. hahaha.. yea.. it's so tiring to be the one taking the first step to everything.. it is simply too exhausting and draining of energy.. haha.. and worse still.. if they are not met with well responses..

oh.. anyway.. i doubt you're reading this but.. i dont know if you have something against me.. haha.. i juz wanna tell ya.. things are still the same as before on my side.. i doubt they are so over at your end.. haha..

hmm.. hahahaha.. am i making any sense here? i doubt so.. yea.. end of story.. byebye.. gonna take a rest before embarking on marketing.. haha.. not as if i will do so any time soooooon..

oh.. i smell a rat!!! hahaha.. smth FISHY.. lalalala..

teacher..

znew left a note @02:37

Friday, April 28

hmm.. i know..

i know you only come to me when --- cant provide you with the things you want..

i know..

i know you only come to me when --- is not around..

and i know..

i m merely a ----------..

i feel so silly as i say my next line..

--- - -- ---- ---- - -- ---- --- ---

znew left a note @02:24

instead of making you click on your own to the march 26's entry.. i copied and paste the content here.. coz it's VERY relevant to our everyday life..

have u ever felt like u did everything u could to help ppl dear to u. yet wad u get in return is simply nothing. we always take things for granted, and not appreciate it til its gone. if u are the person who keeps giving and not taking, one day will u feel so sick and tired of all these? and in the end, u are the person who gets hurt ultimately.

no one can be selfless. we need to protect ourselves sometimes, no one likes to get hurt. if ure too convenient, ure always there for yr gd frens, naturally, not deliberately tho, yr frens might take u for granted. after all, u will always be there. when she's down, she'll look for u. but when she's not, ure cast aside. so who will be there for u when ure down and in need of a shoulder. its kinda a mutual thing right. frens support each other. if one pillar is strong and the other is weak, the ceiling will collapse after some time right?

mayb sometimes to make ourselves less vulnerable, we cant always give in. we gotta learn to say no, and tell the person not to take u for granted. it may seem mean, but its the only way of protecting ourselves. no one likes to give and not receive anything in return right? pls dun come and tell me how selfless u are and are willing to sacrifice everything for a fren. cuz no one will be a saint. no one can be God.so, it may seem mean, but aint it jus another survival skill?sometimes being nice doesnt buy u anything, u'll be taken advantage of instead. u'll be treated like 7/11, jus another convenience store, where ppl will only come to during rainy days. mayb being softhearted is not gd. u gotta learn to be strong alrite? and learn to protect urself. if not no one can help u.

hmm.. now that you have read the 3 paragraphs above.. do you know how to show your appreciation for something your friends have done for you? make them understand and realise that.. whatever they have done is worth it.. even if it takes up alot of their time..

and yes.. i gotta learn to be strong.. and protect myself.. as if i m not doing enough.. yada yada.. what do you wanna say about me again? throwing my tantrum around? c'mon.. who put me in all these shit.. it's you.. yah.. the effect is disastrous.. does it kill you to even.. haiz.. nevermind.. you will never understand the pain i m suffering.. coz you never even cared.. if you ever do.. what's with all these that i m facing everyday.. repeating every single day..

mankind are contradicting animals as i said.. taking for example.. being online.. you want to be online.. coz.. on one hand.. you are afraid that you are missing something.. and afraid that the ones you loved are alone when they need someone.. yet on the other.. you want to make your loved ones miss you.. wth.. i know that's very mean to do that.. but dont you feel that.. sometimes.. abscence really makes the heart grows fonder..

and wow.. i m still not really studying.. coz i m not in the mood to.. wonder how did i manage to tide through this period last sem..

hmm.. neither you nor me had change.. it's the other person.. and it's the way things are.. you simply changed your audience.. you chose to perform to a different crowd.. you chose to shift.. you chose to move.. you chose to..

and yah.. i played no part in them.. as much as i wish i m part of your new audience.. wow..

hahaha.. dont get what i m saying? good.. coz i doubt you ever will..

and the person in the story will never ever will.. coz.. nvm.. shant carry on..

coz.. it will be pretty..

ugly

znew left a note @00:00

Thursday, April 27

刚看了娱乐新闻，孙协志出了一本刊物《孙语录》，以下是《雯语录》。

孙协志受访时说道：“努力不一定会成功，但如果不努力就永远不会成功。”

这与“钱不是万能的，但没钱却万万不能。”有着异曲同工之妙。

这两句话背后的道理是一样的。犹如“有希望就会有失望，但没希望就没动力。”

只恨年少爱逞强 为小事轻言离别
看倔强带幸福越走越远 有时不愿让一点 最后却失去一切

脑袋都是你 心里都是你 念的都是你 全部都是你

每一次和你分开 深深地被你打败

应该放晴的天气　还下雨　别这样下去 我难过　但是说不出口
一直逃避　我以为闭上眼睛就能忘记

全世界的人都知道 一廂情願是種煩惱
只要換你一次微笑 就算是作夢也會笑
全世界的人不知道 我不在乎付出多少
我想這就是幸福寫照 任何人不能阻止我對你的好

悲傷 喜悅 回憶不斷重演 靜下來的世界 有我的思念

想回到过去 试着抱你在怀里 羞怯的脸带有一点稚气 想看你的看的世界
想在你梦的画面 只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜
想回到过去 试着让故事继续 至少不再让你离我而去 分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧 这样挽留不知还来不来得及 想回到过去
思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放 盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去 一转身孤单已躺在身旁 又回到过去

我想我會開始想念你 可是我剛剛才遇見了你 我懷疑 這奇遇只是個惡作劇
我想我已慢慢喜歡你 因為我擁有愛情的勇氣 我任性 投入你給的惡作劇
你給的惡作劇

我找不到更好的原因 去阻擋這一切的情意 這感覺太奇異 我道歉不能說明
我相信這愛情的定義 奇蹟會發生也不一定 風溫柔得清晰 也許飄來好消息

我才發現 你很耀眼 請讓我再瞧瞧你的雙眼 沒有人瞭解 沒有人像我和陌生人的愛戀　

我想我會開始想念你 可是我剛剛才遇見了你 我懷疑 這奇遇只是個惡作劇

我愿用真心交换你 偶尔分到你一点关心
就算你不能完全属于我 我也愿意 照顾自己

有时爱就是那么奇妙 怎么也想不到 想不到 我竟如此的为你指引
想不到 我只要 一刻不见你 就无法呼吸

看窗外霓虹灯在闪耀 情人在街道上拥抱 我的夜只能依靠
不停想你 才会有心跳 哦

好寂寞 每当想起你的时候 好想痛要将我吞没 却不能对你说

我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

this entry is not making any sense.. hahaha..

znew left a note @18:44

ok ok ok.. after this entry.. i willl study.. yes.. it's a promise..

hmm.. initially.. i thought the treatment was across the board.. only to realise only tonight that.. it wasnt.. hmm.. i m too naive.. haha.. yes.. easily fooled.. when did i become so gullible?

haha.. i bet you have no idea what i m talking about.. it's okie.. you dont have to know.. haha..

hmm.. i just finished reading all 200+ entries.. and that's why i came again..

hmm.. i realised.. i m the kind of person.. who will regret easily.. taking for example.. hall stay.. how much i detest it at the start.. and when i decided to give up the place for si.. i start to not want to part with the room.. then.. the 'good' old days.. hmm.. just like what the lyrics of du chang qing ge says.. translated into english.. the moment of insist makes u lose everything.. and.. seeing stubborness leading happiness away.. hmm.. haha.. still clueless about what i m referring to? good..

hmm.. and.. haha.. how much i miss all those happy days.. those days i enjoy whatever i m doing for the day.. or even those experiences.. hmm.. it's interesting to note how things really change within the short span of few months ya.. haha.. yea.. as always..

hmm.. it's just me.. guess that's all..

hmm.. oh.. i'd like to refer my readers to my entry on 26march.. it's on taking friends for granted.. hmm.. wow.. haha..

hmm.. i hope i din commit that mistake..

hmm.. and till now.. i dont think there's anything invalid in the entries.. they are still applicable..

haha.. how sad.. i m still bugged by them after so many months.. hahaha.. what a failure..

znew left a note @02:03

Wednesday, April 26

hmm.. die die die die die die.. i m soooooo slow..

okie.. i collected jayden just now.. sparkling he is now.. bwahaha.. soo shiny.. omg.. i must must must take good care of him.. i dont wanna sponsor him to go for another spa.. i want to save it for myself.. haha..

hmm.. oh.. it's only when you expect.. you'll be disappointed.. yepz.. this is very true.. hmm.. and.. i dont know why i m doing what i m doing.. hahaha.. as in.. i dont see the reason why i should.. yet i did.. bwahaha..

i cant focus..

hmm.. i m beginning to lose everything.. ya.. losing all of those i used to have.. why did things turn out this way.. hmm.. am i just.. nvm.. sometimes.. i want to know why.. why am i behaving the way i am.. and why are you behaving the way you are.. however.. sometimes.. i want to be kept in the dark.. coz harsh is the adjective for reality.. being ignorant is a form of happiness also..

hmm.. things will NEVER be the same again.. will they?

ps: haha.. coz i posted on damwow b4 this.. and guess what? i posted this on damwow instead.. so stupid of me.. blur.. haha.. heng ah.. i removed that already..

znew left a note @21:22

hmm.. haiz.. i feel so lethargic.. no drive to do anything.. damn.. er xin feeling.. this is bad.. i dont have much time to waste.. argh..

hmm.. slept for like three plus hours.. woke up to send jayden to its service.. decided to polish and wax it.. haha.. ya.. remove the scratches and such.. haha.. hopefully it look better after everything.. better be.. not very cheap.. 80bucks.. haiz..

hmm.. then came home to continue sleeping.. on the way back.. the taxi uncle told me about his previous customer.. paid for her taxi fare of 5.90 with visa.. the adminstrative fee chargeable would be like close to a dollar.. so he was commenting how banks are using the consumers desire to show off in generating profits.. coz youngsters want a card in hand.. best if it's the all-so-famous visa or even master.. hmm.. yepz.. hence.. they would apply for one when they meet the minimum requirements set by the bank.. and even if they dont use the card.. annual fee is still payable..

hmm.. it just goes to show the shift in consumers' behaviour over the years.. youngsters arent as down to earth as their parents were in the past.. most of us are spending what we call.. future money.. we indulge in brands.. is there really such a need to go after branded stuffs? okie.. i dont think i m in a very good position to comment on that since i do own some of those.. hmm.. okie.. if their prices are justified with the quality of the products.. i have nothing to say.. what i meant is that.. if there's a cheaper alternative.. and there's really no such need to get that branded good.. we can well avoid spending that amount of money..

hmm.. another solution would be.. if you really want that commodity so much.. look for a cheaper way to get it.. like during sales.. or even online? that way.. you get what you want.. without burning as big a hole in your pocket..

hmm.. hmm.. okie.. not every single piece of your clothing must be branded.. not all nice appealing stuffs have to be branded.. sometimes you're simply attracted to the goods coz of its brand.. apply marketing people.. hahaha..

hmm.. this is just so random.. lalalalalala..

znew left a note @13:50

Tuesday, April 25



oh.. i just recalled what i wanna say..

hmm.. i think i know what i lack.. one of the thing is.. the sense of security.. yah.. i dont feel secure with myself at of now.. guess it has something to do with self-confidence maybe? i dont know.. hmm.. it's like.. haha.. i just dont feel secure.. haha.. sheesh.. limited vocab.. hmm..

hmm.. it's an irony.. okie.. maybe you dont call that irony.. coz.. i know judo.. hmm.. so more or less i should feel safe? but it's a different level thing.. i m missing the emotional psychological component.. not the physical part.. hmm.. and for that.. either i look for the source to gain that.. or perhaps.. i gain it from another person.. which.. isnt that ideal a solution.. coz if the person is gone.. the sense of security is gone as well..

hmm.. haha.. perhaps i should write more thoughts provoking entries.. not just narrating what happened during the day and such..

hmm.. nway.. just came back from a short trip to ps.. hahaha.. omg.. i miss the feeling of walking around.. window shopping and browsing through the stuffs with completely no sense of urgency.. haha.. i wanna walk walk walk walk walk.. hahaha.. =]

hmm.. bought some junk food.. yes! haha.. i have the company of these foodstuffs.. they will help me fight the battle.. yeah.. and oh.. there was japanese apples on sales.. and i just went to have a sniff.. omg.. sweeeeeeet.. haha.. it's really honey-centered apple.. hahaha.. and i realised i have lost touch with the world.. when did ribena change its bottle to plastic? hahaha.. hee.. i m such a mountain tortoise..

hmm.. below is just random thoughts.. please.. dont think too much into it.. dont read too much in between the lines.. it has nothing to do with what i m currently experiencing.. thanks..

hmm.. hmm.. sometimes.. i wonder if it's what one does that is too insignificant or what.. hmm.. sometimes.. i feel under-appreciated for what i have done.. i guess it's all in the matter of perceptions.. others may perhaps view it as a trivial favour.. hmm.. haha.. indeed.. sometimes it is.. but at other times.. it is actually more taxing than what it seems from the surface.. haha.. things arent as simple as they seem.. yah? hmm.. haha.. yah.. it's an irony.. soo contradicting.. coz on one hand you may want to be recognised or appreciated for what you've done.. yet on the other.. you're not trying to claim credits for these efforts you have put in.. you just wanna feeel appreciated.. i dont know how to put it.. haha.. yah.. i dont think you know what i wanna bring across..

hmm.. friendship is just like love.. it's not reciprocal.. you cant expect the other party to contribute how ever amount you have put in for the friendship or relationship.. hmm.. hmm.. you chose to put in that much an effort.. it just goes to show how important you view this person as a friend.. yepz.. if he/she doesnt regard you as highly as how you've regarded him/her.. hmm.. haha.. it's kinda.. sad arh.. hee..

hmm.. it's interesting to see how relationship or friendship shifts.. haha.. really.. just look back at the how many companions you met along your way till now.. how many left footprints in your life.. and are still by your side now.. and how many has kinda left.. or rather.. you simply lost touch with these people.. the closeness is no longer there.. hmm.. and perhaps.. for friendship.. the effect of out of sight.. out of mind is more significant than abscence makes the heart grows fonder.. haha.. hmm..

hmm.. oh no.. i m chanting away again.. hahaha..

hmm.. decided.. since i have so many pictures in my lappie.. shall share.. hahahaha.. what shit.. if not the entry will be v.plain with just text right?

znew left a note @21:52

helloe all.. i m doomed..

why am i so silly.. why do i think soo much into the question.. it was do-able.. alamak.. argh.. yes.. it's really do-able.. godammit.. see la.. think think think too much.. i m the result of the education system in singapore at sec and jc level.. haha..

hmm.. haha.. someone said my previous entry is funny.. hahaha.. hahaha..

hmm.. i m stillllllll very angry with myself! arghhh.. so stupid.. i m so stupid..

hmm.. haiz.. i dont know what to say of myself..

hmm.. material science.. i cant afford to falter again.. haha.. but i feel so much like slacking now.. hahaha.. hahaha..

hmm.. i want to..

-eat goood food.. any nice delicious food..
-shop shop shop.. actuallie just walk around to see what's in town n such.. hahaha..
-clean jayden.. eeyer..
-break free.. hahaha..
-go travelling~
-watch all my shows..
-enhance my friendships.. hahaha...
-sleep sleep sleep sleep sleep..

alalalalalala..

znew left a note @17:21

Monday, April 24

helloe copycat! i dont know if you're reading this.. but i just wanna tell you.. you're really good at selective reading and hearing.. applause for your capability to ignore selectively and the skill of picking up others' trademarks..

this entry is for you.. dont you feel honoured? which cat gets such wonderful treatment.. let alone a copycat..

wow.. you're stillllllllll not taking into considerations what i have said after those few agonizing entries.. are you really that dumb? oops.. i should say.. ignorant..

as how one of my friends put it.. perhaps you dont think it's copying.. coz you think it's IN and perhaps should just pick it up.. that was meant to compliment me.. coz what she meant was.. what i m doing is the trend.. i m the trend-setter.. bwahaha..

omg.. i din know till this very day.. with the level of education in singapore.. such slow person do exist.. this is really shocking..

i think i sound bimbotic and bitchy.. i juz wanna bring the point across to the copycat.. perhaps i need to speak their kind of language.. meow meow meow..

meow meow meow meow meow..

meow meow meow..

meow meow!

znew left a note @12:39

Sunday, April 23

hmm.. decided to dedicate an entry to 53-5-1046.. the place i used to call it my weekday home..

i was officially not an occupant of the unit with effect from 22 november 2005.. i moved most of my stuffs home on 1st january 2006.. and occassionally stayed since then.. till today.. when i finally cleared everything in the room..

hmm.. it's a place i used to call it my weekday home.. it's place i prepared for my exams last sem.. it's the place i used to hate coz of all the hassle of 'booking in and out'.. hmm.. those late night chats.. those late night mugging sessions.. and the self-prepared dinners.. waking up and feel the jeans hung behind the door being totally sun and hot.. bathing with cold water when the heater was not on.. bringing the hot water flask to the toilet to wash and fill it with water to boil.. those rice and macaroni with chunky.. our very own vegetables with assorted balls soup.. plus ba jiong with with egg fried in rice cooker.. deciding and fussing over where to go for dinner.. the blackouts.. haha.. the k-ing sessions.. star-gazing.. laughing at each other's ultra lame jokes.. tian in forbidden city.. daphne and yingjie's visit.. and of course.. those fruits.. chatting over slices of oranges after training.. the occassional visits by cheryl and shaun.. damwow.. jean and siying.. and the suprise they gave for my bday.. the boards.. everything in the room played a part in constructing the memory.. every bits are like pieces to the puzzle..

hmm.. hall is actually a nice place to sleep.. haha.. yes.. draw the blinds.. blast the fan.. off the lights.. and trust me.. you wont wake up in the morning without alarm..

hmm.. i miss waking up to fill the scorching sun greeting you when you open the door to the toilet to wash up.. then toasting the bread for breakfast.. going to wait for the first shuttle bus out of hall 11.. hmm.. then calling ur roomie to ask about dinner after lessons.. going back to a room where you change out and started rotting away till after dinner then start work.. hahaha.. and strolling back to hall after trainings or dinners.. enjoying the breeze.. hahaha..

hmm.. as i said.. this is only a tribune to 53-5-1046.. haha.. no strings attached..

hmm.. as much as those booking in and out sessions suck.. i began to take them in my stride after a few months.. haha.. gone were the days.. and they will never return.. i will just look forward to a better tomorrow..

cheerios..

znew left a note @23:54

haha.. i m so sicked of physics.. i need to finish it! but i know i cant complete that today.. haiz..

hmm.. went hall to clear alllll the stuffs today.. and i really mean all.. i threw away all the stuffs like those chronicles and nanyang tribune went to our door.. and i took down the pictures as well.. discarded the judo board for sports expose.. haha.. disassembled the clothes stand.. my boot is filled with stuffs now.. i better clear them before tuesday.. haiz..

hmm.. totally inefficient today.. i merely did 1 chapter.. okie.. that chapter is pretty tough.. at least to me.. haiz.. i need to work faster.. my eyelids are getting heavy.. no! cannot give up! hahaha..

hmm.. i want this to end really quickly! i cant stand it..

hmm.. so good.. cheryl is leaving for bangkok on wednesday.. argh.. fortunate.. blessed girl..

hahaha.. hope she can find what i want.. *pray..

hmm.. oh.. anyway.. i reallllllllie cant wait for july to come.. i hope nationals schools finals dont clash with my trip.. i sincerely hope soo.. argh..

hmm.. and my dear tian tian is leaving for shanghai somewhere after 15june.. and wini is leaving for us on 30th april.. oh mine.. my holidays left with si to pei2 me from judo side.. hahaha.. but she has other commitments as well.. like.. special term.. haha.. =p

hmm.. oh.. i detoured to sixth avenue just now.. to get some stuffs from cold storage and bread from simply bread.. haha.. venezia renovated its interior.. and.. i dont know if it's me or simply bread.. haha.. even the most detested fruit bun tasted delicious just now.. haha.. perhaps i was really too hungry.. it was really good.. it's either fruit or apricot.. haha.. i cant tell the difference except colours.. haha.. nway.. the lady in front of me in the queue bought like 12 large pizzas.. crazy.. but it's actually quite common in hypermarts.. the riches like to do their grocery shopping all at one go..

hmm.. i think i need to get back to my notes and tutorials.. haiz..

hmm.. hang on wenz.. hahaha.. 3 more papers..

hmm.. perhaps i should pamper myself a little after material science paper.. hahaha..

hmm.. oh.. hee.. i juz realised.. the two figures dont tally..

znew left a note @23:05

haa.. i m back.. juz finished 8th april's guess guess guess.. hmm.. not that nice.. haiz..

hmm.. was watching.. and then i realised.. i wasnt really laughing at their jokes.. even though i know it's quite funny.. =[.. and i know where did my kissing emoticon come about.. the characters are actually famous twins in tw.. omg.. they are damn cute.. haha..

hmm.. haiz.. sian.. life is soo boring..

hmm.. oh.. hmm.. nothing much.. shant say it here.. hee..

hmm.. still full now.. if not i'd be sleeping.. goin hall to clear the rest of the stuffs like.. the clothes stand.. hmm.. maybe i will study there for awhile.. quite some time if the weather isnt too humid..

hmm.. today isnt that efficient.. damn.. i gotta finish my physics tomorrow.. and hopefully 1-2 more chapters of material science.. time is running out.. and mon would be dedicated to physics from 1400 onwards..

hmm.. yah.. i m missing something in life.. i m repeating myself.. haha..

hmm.. what is it? you may ask.. i wont answer.. haha..

hmm.. perhaps it's just the time of the year.. perhaps there's really something.. perhaps i m juz thinking too much.. perhaps there was nothing at all.. perhaps perhaps perhaps.. hahaha..

znew left a note @02:10

Saturday, April 22

argh.. hahaha.. nothing.. just wanted to scream.. yeah.. virtually.. haiz.. i wanna scream out loud physically..

hmm.. stayed home today.. went out in the afternoon to purvis street to get physics text from liquan.. hmm.. that place looks like it has alot of food! haha.. omg.. national library is certainly surrounded by good food.. =]

oh.. there is a korean restaurant at seah street.. it looks authentic from inside the car.. hahaha.. ya.. nothing much to comment on that since i wasnt able to stop and go down to take a closer look at what it has to offer..

hmm.. it's raining now.. hmm..

tempted to touch.. tempted to touch.. lalalalalalala.. blah blah blah.. [this is a song..]

argh.. hahaha.. i m tired of reading.. but if i dont finish reading.. it's pointless to do the papers.. hmm.. perservere!

hmm.. ya.. i finished up to 19 of prison break.. 20 hasnt been released yet.. for your info..

hmm.. and oh.. i m overlooking city hall.. raffles place skycrapers now.. cool.. their lights certainly illuminates the misty foggy sky..

hmm.. argh.. tired tired tired tired tired.. shagged shagged shagged shagged shagged.. bored bored bored bored bored.. loner loner loner loner loner.. hahaha.. who cares if it's so random..

hmm.. on last night.. oli.. wei and i were talking about the meteor shower.. haha.. i dont know what was with me then.. coz we were saying.. if you and your boyfriend were to watch the meteor shower together in a very dark place.. and i continued saying.. when the meteor shower starts.. he held your hand.. closes his eyes.. and said to you.. my only wish is to have you by my side for the rest of my life.. hahaha.. melt quick! haha.. now.. i have something else to add to this. hmm.. then.. the guy popped a ring out from his pocket.. and says.. will you grant me this wish? argh~~~

hahaha.. i m going crazy.. watched too much tv.. too many ideals.. yes.. ideals not ideas.. hmm.. but actually.. if i'm with the one i truly love.. that person doesnt have to go to such extent to humour or entertain me.. haha.. yah.. i just want the person to be with me when i need him.. hmm.. and allow me to shower my love and concern for him.. occassional suprises would be a bonus.. but if done too frequently will lose its magical power..

oh.. i was kinda bored stiff last night that i researched on tw before going to bed.. haha.. i found the address of fang niu ban which is a classroom theme restaurant.. and of course.. the famous car theme restaurant featured in meteor garden.. hmm.. oh.. and jay chou's omni.. as well as his theatre themed retro restaurant.. hahaha.. i m getting all-so-excited..

hmm.. life is good slackin.. last night was a pretty good night.. pretty only.. =]

hmm.. jayden going for its service on wed.. haha.. all of a sudden.. i feel so silly for bookin such an early appointment.. haha.. nvm.. i will wake up in time and send jayden there punctually.. and hopefully my parents will be kind enough to send me home.. hahaha..

hahahahaha.. =p

hmm.. i m kinda behind schedule.. haha.. er xin.. hahaha..

hmm.. i m going crazy.. hahaha.. i need to unwind.. yeah.. how i miss using this term.. haha.. and i remember.. after j2 prelims.. daph was remindin me to study.. and i said to her.. i need to unwind.. haha.. then she was like.. 'still unwind? nothing left to unwind!'

haha..

long entry huh.. 1 entry per day.. i hope.. =]

i wanna play game! hahaha..

znew left a note @19:31

Friday, April 21

hmm.. life science is over.. not a good feeling.. haiz.. i wanted to leave earlier.. but coz i was in front.. and i was afraid that.. if i leave.. and the rest of damwow dont.. i would be alone outside.. what for? it's so hot and stuffy outside.. haha.. so i sat inside.. and occassionally looking over to oli n mich's side.. hoping that they will signal to me to leave.. hahaha.. but.. haha..

hmm.. then went with mich and des to j8 food court for lunch.. dun ever eat the nasi padang.. super expensive.. nasi lemak RICE + drum + tofu + vege costs $4.50! yes.. dont ever eat that.. if i had knew earlier.. i would have stood by my bimbimbap.. haiz.. my heart is aching.. hahaha..

hmm.. sent mich home.. after which i slept till like 1700.. woke up to watch tv.. haha.. then.. slacked.. here and there.. watched 17 and 18 of prison break.. and here i am.. blogging away..

hmm.. on tv.. was watching guess guess guess.. hmm.. looking at them so passionate about their sports.. i kinda miss judo.. yea.. i miss the feeling of loving something so dearly.. i miss the feeling of having people who stood by you no matter what is the outcome of the bout.. i miss the feeling of having people who will fight with you.. who swear to go through all those hells with you.. yea..

hmm.. i cant wait for nationals.. haha.. i know my juniors would hope that day dont come so soon so that they have more time to prepare.. haha..

hmm.. oh.. this is gonna be so random..

hmm.. even if i sincerely meant something good.. people will take it as a mockery.. sarcasm.. even if i really meant to compliment the person.. yea.. damwow should know this very well.. since they once commented on this.. hmm.. perhaps i should do something about it? haha..

znew left a note @22:46

Thursday, April 20

hmm.. i m dying..

hmm.. many things on my mind.. this time.. even prison break doesnt help bringing those thoughts away.. as random as they may be.. they do.. take up some space..

hmm.. haiz.. for those who are done with your exams.. good for you..

hmm.. oh.. it's inevitable for human beings to be biased you know.. coz since our heart isnt positioned right the centre.. it's to our left.. yea.. translate the whole paragraph into chinese if you dont get it..

hmm.. hmm.. i think you'd say i m crazy if i say this.. i might feel the tinge of emptiness after exam has end.. i definitely will.. dont know what to do with all the free time before getting a job.. yea yea.. the list of things to do after exams you'd say.. but.. it also depends on your mood..

hmm.. already.. i dont think i can finish round 2 of my life science.. and yet.. i m here.. blogging my time again..

hmm.. cheryl ng! if you see this.. come accompany me on one of these days after 25th.. hahaha.. your dear friend here needs your company.. tell shaun i need you for a day.. =]

hmm.. all of a sudden.. i feel that i failed terribly in life.. fullstop..

ps: if you find some previous posts missing.. i decided to 'remove' them coz i think i typed all those all coz i was really down then.. and that was just a way of relieving myself..

znew left a note @21:54

老天是公平的.. 我正努力的相信这句话.. 为何付出了那么多.. 却得不到那么一丁点的回报.. 我开始累了..

为何有些人可以那么轻松的地得到.. 而我似乎在绕远路后.. 还没到目的地.. 前方有好多障碍..

也许.. 一切都是注定的..

我只能说.. XX的魔力真伟大.. 能使一个人改变她/他的生活作息..

如果一切在冥冥中早已有安排.. 那.. 这一切都是白费的..

人说命运掌握在自己手中.. 真的吗？

为何我手心感受不到命运的存在..

was browsing through my pictures last night.. I realized I really missed hall life.. coz I have tian.. I had a big table for me to do whatever I want.. I had a big board to paste pictures.. calendars and even lyrics.. even though there was no tv.. I was contented with just itunes and tian.. haha.. sounds kinda brokeback..

hmm.. but I know I wont get to relive those moments again.. with jayden.. of course it would be good to stay hall and drive.. but one cant get the best of both worlds.. yepz.. I have come to accept that.. coz.. many out there wants to have the experience of stayin in hall or havin jayden.. now that I had stayed in hall.. and currently enjoyin the company of jayden now.. I guess I’m rather fortunate.. and I should be contented..

hmm.. sometimes.. when I’m tooooo free.. haha.. we’d think.. how would life be like if we had continued staying in hall.. hmm.. coz I came to realization that I was alil reluctant to part with hall living in October.. hmm.. those days of counting down was a disguise.. and I am super guilty for leaving tian alone in the room from January onwards.. it must have been hard on her..

znew left a note @13:08

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znew left a note @02:10

hmm.. haha.. from an email.. din feel like forwarding the mail.. sooo..

men are hard to please..

the problems with guys:

if you treat him nicely.. he says you are in love with him.. if you dont.. he says you are proud..

if you dress nicely.. he says you are trying to lure him.. if you dont.. he says you are from kampung..

if you argue with him.. he says you are stubborn.. if you keep quiet.. he says you are stubborn..

if you are smarter than him.. he'll lose face.. if he's smarter than you.. he's great..

if you dont love him.. he tries to possess you.. if you love him.. he will try to leave you..

if you dont make love with him.. he says you dont love him.. if you do.. he says you are cheap..

if you tell him your problem.. he says you are troublesome.. if you dont.. he says you dont trust him..

if you scold him.. you are like a nanny to him.. if he scolds you.. it is because he cares for you..

if you break your promise.. you cannot be trusted.. if he breaks his.. he is forced to do so..

if you smoke.. you are a bad girl.. if he smokes.. he is gentleman..

if you do well in your exams.. he says it's luck.. if he does well.. it's brains..

if you hurt him.. you are cruel.. if he hurts you.. you are sensitive..

guys are so hard to please..

and.. if you send this to guys.. they will swear that it's not true.. but if you dont.. they say you are selfish..

send it to guys out there anyway..

and send it to girls also.. give them some laughter..

rather true anyway..

znew left a note @00:34

Wednesday, April 19

hmm.. hahaha.. i m back!!!

hmm.. hahaha.. i have hell lotsa things to on my mind..
  1. dunnnoe how many sets of life science notes
  2. dunnnoe how many sets of physics notes
  3. dunnnoe how many sets of material science notes and pages of textbook
  4. 3 episodes of guess guess guess
  5. 5+1 more episodes of prison break
  6. jayden is freaking dirty

hmm.. haha.. i just added some of the songs into my itunes.. they are songs i have but din edit their names n such.. so only added them just now.. it now contains..

1306 songs!

hmm..

hmm.. perhaps some things really do make my day..

znew left a note @23:06

hmm.. in mich's place now.. supposed to study.. but the three of us.. mich, des and i ended up watchin shows on our lappie.. des was watchin last night's yu le.. mich.. guess.. and i was watchin episode 13 of prison break.. haha.. yes.. i think i'll be able to watch 14 tmr..

hmm.. maths was out to kill.. damn.. so bloody tough.. haiz.. i was at qn4 by 1010.. haha.. coz i practically skipped all the questions.. except 2 and 3c.. haiz.. this is really bad.. for those who think it was ok.. good for you.. coz i personally think i m doomed..

hmm.. and for those who made mistakes today.. it's ok.. everyone makes mistake.. dont brood over it.. you need to move on in life.. there's quite a few more papers.. coz if you know this is gonna pull down your gpa.. you cant afford to allow it to fall further.. hence you gotta put your heart onto other matters..

hmm.. went jp for la mian xiao long bao.. was soo full.. hmm.. guess all of us are kinda worn out by the math paper.. hmm.. so wei n oli left for home.. while the 3 of us came mich's place..

hmm.. alright.. tomorrow is intensive life science.. mcqs on friday.. so? still.. i m clueless about what's happening..

hmm.. hmm.. i need to clear the stuffs in hall..

znew left a note @16:47

Tuesday, April 18

broken alliance..

hmm.. probably one of the few countable entries with a title..

hmm.. math tomorrow.. first core.. haiz.. feeling really horrible now.. hmm.. worse than last sem's.. perhaps there were people to root for me then.. now.. i feel as if i'm all alone fighting the battle..

and i hope my maths wouldnt be as bad as last sem's..

hmm.. i know i shouldnt be blogging so frequently during this period.. hmm.. but i just couldnt help it to log in.. and then create new post.. hmm.. perhaps i really need a good break with the right people..

hmm.. but everyone is occupied with their exams now.. yepz.. i dont wanna be a nuisance to them.. at least not everyone.. those that i wish to confide in perhaps.. haa.. if u r reading this.. it's okie.. i'll hang on.. and perhaps.. everything would have changed for the better then.. =]

hmm.. i m becoming more and more unlike my usual self..

hmm.. i wasnt this temperamental in the past.. perhaps the event has really hit me hard this time round.. i was able to move on pretty quickly.. not this time though.. haa.. this really spoils the impression of me for my new-found-friends..

hmm.. yah.. the alliance is perhaps broken in a sense.. although i hope it wasnt the case.. but the signs are pointing in that direction..

hmm.. for those who happen to read this before you sleep.. all the best for math paper..

hmm.. from equilateral to isosceles.. if you know what i m driving at.. =]

znew left a note @23:46

Monday, April 17

hmm.. it's really quite hard not to think about it.. hmm.. coz it's constantly in my mind.. how i wish i could throw it at the back of my mind as easily as abc.. hmm..

hmm.. it's like.. all that had happened.. they are signs.. wow.. so telling..

hmm.. happy days dont last.. do they? if they really do.. how come i dont feel its constant existence..

hmm.. sometimes.. i feel that it's really unfair.. at other times.. i think i was the one to blame for..
hmm.. oh.. i really hate it when people put words into your mouth.. or worse.. back-stabbing.. or perhaps.. calling names.. hmm.. these people are really evil.. arent they?

hmm.. and it's really infuriating to not get recognised for what you've done.. hmm.. you cant find your worth.. or worse.. other claim the credits instead..

hmm.. and i guess the copycat will never realise that i'm talking about him/her.. coz he/she would never come to light that he/she is actually imitating me subconsciously..

hmm.. nway.. i've lost.. but i dont wanna admit defeat..

算了啦..是时候醒来了..都已沉睡那么久了..难道还不够吗..一切都已清清楚楚地摆在眼前..睁大眼睛看清一切..不要再沉迷于虚拟中..究竟还有什么你看不明白？

znew left a note @13:00

i m sick of saying this again..

will the copycat.. kindly stop copying?

it doesnt reflect much about yourself..

c'mon.. own words.. own style.. stop imitating others..

this is like the 3rd time i m saying this..

i certainly hope there isnt the 4th..

do you understand that? copycat..

and i regret to inform you that.. it's not funny.. none of those was funny nor hilarious.. down right silly.. yes.. very.. awwww..

znew left a note @02:10

Sunday, April 16

hmm.. sian.. bored.. tired.. but dont feel like sleeping..

hmm.. been visiting the library as if it's my workplace.. hmm.. but i din go to my usual hideout today.. kinda disappointed about that.. coz there goes my car-viewing.. hmm.. the study lounge was bloody crowded.. not even a seat.. after brunch.. we tried our luck again.. this time.. worse.. even the bar table was taken.. ppl sitting all over the floor.. wow.. ppl of all ages.. haiz.. singaporeans really love to study out.. dont they?

hmm.. levelb1.. the sofa was shiok.. but sitting on it wont encourage you to study a tiny winy bit at all.. glad to find the empty table.. complete with powerpoint n wireless.. good.. haha.. sat there.. quite a no. of ppl walked past and kinda peeked at what i was watchin.. okie.. it's prison break episode 3 and 4 that i watched in library.. i watched episode 2 in macdonald anyway..

hmm.. those days of the down period are here again.. haha.. it's funny how they manage to find their way to me.. every now and then.. hmm.. i m not talking about the biological clock that goes gu-gu at the specific days of the months..

hmm.. i dont know what's up.. hahaha.. had a good dinner.. came home thinking good days ahead.. hmm.. only to feel alil down at night.. hmm.. perhaps.. coz i'm kinda tired of the lil mugging sessions.. and i do mean lil.. coz they are super unproductive.. my mind was on other stuffs.. like my bed.. haha..

hmm.. this is bad.. i barely touched life science..

nway.. on thurs.. haha.. came home after library to get papa grandis out with hi5.. freak them to tell me they wanna go liang seah st.. [i came back from there to get the car..] so in the end.. we went there.. and roamed for a lot to park.. only to end up in nat library.. hahaha.. omg.. i was jus there an hour ago.. haha.. hmm.. okie.. had lai lai beef noodles and other taiwanese food.. marvellous.. hahaha..

nway.. i had my lunch along the stretch as well.. haha..

hmm.. went esplanade after that.. talked.. caught up over starbucks coffee for me.. coz i was alil tired.. hmm.. then.. we witnessed motorbikes been clamped.. haha.. it's like a crab's pincer.. locking the front wheel.. so that it cant rotate.. and they took pic before clampin.. and left a piece of notice for the owner.. i wonder what it says..

hmm.. good friday was good.. spent at home slacking away.. other than doing 2 papers.. which i din even complete.. haha.. i m so laggy..

znew left a note @02:54

12. You'll read his/her SMS over and over again...
11. You'll walk really really slow while you're with him/her...
10. You'll feel shy whenever you're with him/her...
9. While thinking bout him/her...your heart will beat faster and faster...
8. By listening to his/her voice...you'll smile for no reason.
7. While looking at him/her..you cant see the other people around you...you can only see that person...
6. You'll start listening to SLOW songs...
5. He/She becomes all you think about...
4. You'll get high just by their smell...
3. You'll realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them..
2. You'll do anything for him/her...
1. While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time...

for sure.. i m in love..

znew left a note @02:19

Thursday, April 13


i was so bored.. that i decided to do this.. hahaha..

znew left a note @00:32

Wednesday, April 12

hmm.. 1 down.. 5 more to go.. haha..

hmm.. lyrics wasnt that bad.. hmm.. listening to those songs really helped.. coz it helps to push those lyrics into the brain.. haha..

hmm.. after the house-viewing exercise.. we went back to ntu.. to study math.. haiz.. those ppl who took the seminar rooms are rude.. c'mon.. where are your manners? those writings outside the doors arent showing anything good about your personality.. u can leave those notice in the bins.. really..

hmm.. left to search for a tutorial room.. landed up in tr113.. it was surprisingly empty.. and thanks edwin n alvin for enlighting me on math.. hmm.. i m an idiot in math.. my grade last sem was horrible.. pls let it improve.. it better improve.. cant afford to go any further down the line..

hmm.. then after lyrics.. we went for lunch at coronation.. haha.. yah.. all the way there.. haha.. after which.. we decided to take a tour around those private housings in bukit timah.. all coz i was too reluctant to study.. haha.. hmm.. and had island creamery before leaving for school.. i love reversO.. argh!!!

it's really an eye opener.. the houses are freaking big and grand.. argh.. omg! it's like.. rolls-royce.. porsche.. bmwS.. maserati.. haha.. omg..

hmm.. found our way to the legendary ship and ultra majestic house with fountain.. it's on cluny road.. go there and see it for yourself.. you wont believe it..

hmm.. the houses along bt timah are freaks! yes.. freaks!! i still cant forget the sight of them.. i m gonna bring my camera out one day.. to capture them.. i know it's kinda rude.. but.. omg! who asked their houses to be so freaking nice..

hmm.. okie.. i shall make more of such detours when i m free.. hahaha..

hmm.. those houses near ny are nothing now!!! haha..

hmm.. i m kinda motivated to work hard to earn such money to stay in such paradise..

yes.. they are paradise!

znew left a note @21:34

Tuesday, April 11

hmm.. went guan yin ma just now.. asked for a divine lot.. i asked with regards to academic.. but.. hmm.. here is what it says..

english:
yin and yang in perfect harmony. heaven agrees. bride meets groom in matrimony. the strong complement the weak.
intepretation: good
do as you plan. in marriage a male offspring, fortune and crops increase.

阴阳道合总由天
女嫁男婚喜偶然
但见龙蛇相会合
熊x入梦喜团圆

谋望从心
婚姻孕男
资财进益
更利田蚕

此卦阴阳道
合之象凡事
和合大x也

znew left a note @13:40

Monday, April 10

hmm.. i m really bored from studying!!! i need those songs in the lyrics syllabus.. listening to it and looking at the lyrics at the same time can help push those chinese characters into my mind.. hahaha..

hmm.. there's a whole list of things i wanna do after exams.. and i hope i honour my words this time round..
  1. pack my room..
  2. pack my table..
  3. earn money..
  4. save money..
  5. go taiwan..
  6. try to go bangkok..
  7. go msia..
  8. k-ge..
  9. bake..
  10. makan-sutra trips..
  11. clean jayden weekly..
  12. rain-x repellant service for jayden..
  13. jayden's cow-print fur..
  14. buy a vacuum cleaner for jayden..
  15. digital photoalbums..
  16. put lyrics for all my mp3s..
  17. arrange my library.. add those new files in..
  18. finish e zuo ju..
  19. borrow korean drama vcds from tian
  20. lose some weight..
  21. the list will never end.. hahaha..

guess that's all for now.. hmmm..

znew left a note @17:40

Saturday, April 8

hmm.. just back from dinner.. wah.. soo full..

hmm.. i made a mistake.. how blur can i get.. my dad din manage to get sgg2122z.. it was unsuccessful.. i din see those words.. hmm.. they're gonna try sgh.. hmm..

hmm.. ate alot recently.. this is bad.. hmm.. had thai zhi cha for dinner.. nice.. crabs! haha.. all 3 tables with different food.. hmm.. my grandma's bday.. she only used 1 big candle.. i goped the rest of the 5 big 8 small ones.. hahaha.. yes!

hmm.. din do much today.. haha.. and yes.. i m not feeling the tinny winny bit of guilt.. haha.. too much fun.. hmm..

oh.. i bought yet another toy for jayden.. haha.. it's some green moss thingy..

hmm.. boring.. life is soo boring studying..

hmm.. haha.. i m amazed at my youngest cousin.. she is totally inert to whatever i do to her.. she will give those 'boliao' face.. she's only few months' old.. haha.. and she will du1 zui3.. haha.. soo cute.. but not when she starts wailing.. n i mean wail! damn loud.. i'd run..

hmm.. serious work starts tomorrow.. i hope i honour my words.. haha..

falling in love with scenery pictures..

hmm.. and yes! i managed to get my dad to give me the money to buy a new camera.. at no condition.. haha.. coz they spoilt it..

znew left a note @22:52

haha.. i found out yet another potential tasty food! hahaha.. i m soo happy..

http://www.chocabloc.biz/cakes.htm

yes.. visit that site.. the cakes look too good to be true.. i m falling in love..

choc a bloc
blk 86 bedok north st 2
#01-179
for orders, pls call 6446 6096

haha.. order at least 7days in advance..

more details on the website..

omg.. i m dying..

znew left a note @01:11

Friday, April 7

hmm.. in national library once again.. totally cant study at home.. at least i managed to finished one tut here.. haha..

hmm.. drove to china sq central to buy don chicken pie.. haha... yummy.. hmm.. then dad n mum sent me here.. [coz it was on their way to shenton way..]

hmm.. haha.. after finishing the tutorial.. i got so bored that i started staring at the cars on the road.. hmm.. then met jon for desserts at liang seah street.. oh manz.. the water chestnut paste with egg is damn nice! soo cooling.. hmm.. then had takeaways for desmond and jasmine.. hmm.. haha.. too bad.. the water chestnut thing only left with warm ones for takeaway.. oh mine.. the taste is still lingering in my mouth.. haha.. that sensation..

hmm.. had this crepe-prata from rockery.. haha.. the sauce is nice.. yeah.. the prata-crepe is crispy.. not bad.. hmm..

hmm.. i need to start on my next chapter before going home.. haha.. slack somemore.. and i'll be further behind schedule..

hmm.. soo interesting to sit at the side.. overlooking bugis junction.. haha.. just look out of the window.. and you'll be so entertained.. haha.. yea..

hmm.. this is my new hideout.. it opens at 9am.. hahaha..

znew left a note @17:36

Wednesday, April 5

hmm.. in national library once again.. today is not bad.. hmm.. if only everyday could be like this.. i m still behind schedule.. must work even harder.. be even more focussed..

hmm.. fell in love with a pair of denim 3/4 from esprit yesterday after visiting jurong point during break.. haha.. bad idea to go shopping during break.. achieved nothing except eating other-than-canteen-food and shopped.. haha..

hmm.. hmm.. yesterday was the last day of school for me.. and damwow.. we self-declared study break from then onwards.. haha.. and we've registered for the biz plan competition.. there's a serious need to modify our present one before submission.. it has too many flaws.. hmm..

hmm.. had gelare waffle with chocolate overload ice cream.. been some time since i had gelare waffle.. every tuesday is gelare waffle day.. haha.. get that into your head..

hmm.. for the first time.. i reached home at 1800+ on a tuesday.. hahaha.. that's coz i skipped marketing seminar.. i wonder what royden and his group came up with for their marketing plan..

hmm.. i was soo tired after reaching home last night that i actually took a nap after shower.. hmm.. that's quite rare for me..

hmm.. i need to cut my hair! perhaps i cut it tomorrow before or after studying.. hmm.. and after this haircut.. i'll collect my 11th stamp from wars.. which means the next haircut will be free! hahaha..

hmm.. have the sudden craving for chicken pie.. be it from don my personal pie club or m hotel.. either will do.. haha..

hmm.. time to get back to my tutorial.. haiz..

and the pair of 3/4 denim is still in my head.. revolving round and round as if it's on display..

hmm.. but it's a bloody 99 bucks!

oh.. i forgot to mention that.. weiling passed her advanced..

ya.. she passed..

znew left a note @18:48

Tuesday, April 4

hmm.. happy birthday to liquan.. haha.. you're 20!

hmm.. had a really good drive around singapore today.. first.. to ntu.. then went round in search for aye entrance to go nus.. and was a lil lost in nus in search for central library.. picked dt and qr up.. dropped oli off at her house.. and continued heading towards bt timah.. qr alighted to board her 74.. while dt and i moved off to esso to pump.. then went coro to get the chicken pie from prince.. after which.. farrer court to fetch liquan.. before going round and round to look for national stadium.. then igor for awhile and finally.. suntec city.. hahaha.. exciting drive isnt it? was raining cats and dogs at national stadium.. really scary..

hmm.. window shopped abit in suntec.. i like the pouch at mango.. but mich has the card holder.. hmm.. so i have to reconsider.. not v.nice to hold similar stuffs with a friend.. that's what i think..

hmm.. then.. went to look at watches.. thinking of getting one.. but none of them appeals to me.. hee.. i like the one i saw in magazine.. i forgot what brand it is already.. only can remember the design..

hmm.. had country manna.. not bad.. haha.. after we paid.. we took out the pie we bought.. haha.. and the person went to play happy bday over the recorded piano for us.. so we sang the song and cut the pie.. haha.. cool idea isnt it? coz 3 of us.. v.difficult to finish the cake.. haha.. but we were soo full..

hmm.. after that.. walked to city link's prints.. to get smth.. yah.. then walked back to look for jayden.. hahaha.. once again.. i lost track of where jayden was left.. hmm.. so we were walking and walking.. haha.. coz we conveniently forgot where we parked.. we thought we parked at carl's jr.. but jayden was at delifrance.. hahaha.. blur..

hmm.. sent dt to nafa to meet jeremy.. then lq home.. before cheong-ing home.. hmm.. ode quiz tmr.. i haven finish.. i m so dead..

hmm.. i wonder.. do i really give others the feeling.. 'go away.. i dont wanna talk to you..' or send others the msg.. 'she's unfriendly..'

hmm.. alot of things happened recently.. they made me reflect.. hmm..

hmm.. and.. sometimes i wished my intuition.. 6th sense isnt that accurate.. really.. it's been so accurate that i dont wanna think about it again.. like.. if i give the matter a 2nd thought.. i m quite sure the conclusion i derived at.. will be the truth.. hmm.. and i think it's coming back..

znew left a note @00:41

Monday, April 3

hmm.. i managed to utilise april's fool day.. hahaha.. thanks to all those who responded.. that was sweet..

did nothing again today.. so amazed at myself for that..

and i m getting very fed up with msn..

i cant type and send the msg without meetin some problems.. damn it..

irritating..

znew left a note @02:39

Saturday, April 1

hmm.. arghh.. i think i m repeating myself.. but i dont care..

hmm.. worst time of my life!

hmm.. hahaha.. wow.. sooo impressed with myself.. for what i m not sure of..

hmm.. time to do some serious reflection.. lalalala.. doubt it will help.. coz i guess that is not the root of the problem..

hmm.. i wonder how much it takes to take the initiative in reviving a friendship.. hmm.. and.. how much would you get in return.. like love.. friendship is not reciprocal.. it takes two hands to clap.. so no matter hard you try on your side.. when the other party isnt giving positive response.. you're not getting where you want.. it takes more than one person in reviving it.. yes.. it does..

hmm.. and i wonder.. if the amount of time dedicated to maintaining the bond is proportional to the value perceived of this friendship.. as much as i m concerned.. it is an abstract value.. an intangible one.. it is the importance of this someone in your heart.. perhaps some view it as the tangible benefits received from the bond with this someone.. hmm.. and does it mean that once these tangible benefits are exploited.. the bond disappear as well? and when the need for the person arises.. the bond will be formed once again?

hmm.. that is all i wanna say.. i dont think i m making any sense.. ignore what i typed.. i just want to type and type and type as if there is no tomorrow..

hmm.. i can foresee tomorrow would be slack as well..

hmm.. and perhaps the only highlight of the day is campus superstar finals.. they never fail to brighten up my day..

hmm.. did i mention.. my sis gave me a pair of levi's 599 on thursday.. i came home.. told her about the sales.. and later in the night.. she passed me this jeans.. and said she cant wear it anymore.. so if i cant fit.. she will give it to her friend.. haha.. to my suprise.. i can fit! and so.. ta-da.. that pair of jeans is mine.. haha.. forget about election angpao.. those money given in an attempt to bribe votes.. haha.. this pair of jeans is given unconditionally.. and just when i was searching for a pair of decent jeans.. it came at the right time.. hope i dont grow fat.. if not i wont be able to fit into that again..

study!!!!!!

znew left a note @23:17

in national library now.. hmm.. super not productive today.. perhaps i pinned too much hopes on myself.. hmm.. haiz.. hmm.. or perhaps.. i really need a good rest before i embark on my next journey..

hmm.. i need to sleep.. i think.. but there's like soo much to do with soo little time left..

hmm.. time to head back to material science.. i shall draw up my schedule tonight..

hmm.. alalalalala..

hmm.. guess no one would ever understand the true meaning of that line..

hmm.. no one will ever be able to.. =]

znew left a note @16:07