Tuesday, February 28
in hall now.. came to do lab report.. coz i think the room is more conducive than my house.. which is totally true.. left with discussion.. linking to appendix.. 1.5 more questions and i m done with my lab report.. finally! okie.. i know i am supposed to finish that..haa.. had maths quiz today.. blardy.. yepz.. 6 questions.. series! soo dead.. just so dead.. only know how to do 1a.. the whole of qn2.. i did it the wrong way just to get the answer.. no choice.. who asked me to be so slack.. this is a real hard blow.. time to start studying.. this time.. it's for real.. dont tempt me!!!!
haha.. oh.. tomorrow gort sales!!! lalala.. i think i m going.. perhaps that's why i m pia-ing my lab report now..
had physics ca today as well.. easier than expected.. but that doesnt mean i scored full marks.. yepz.. was careless.. and sooo sleepy that i dozed off immediately after finising my questions.. and i think the tutor saw it.. haha.. coz he said.. at least 2 of us finished the paper before ...mins.. yah.. hmm.. very very careless.. but.. nvm.. haha.. at least i could show workings for all! i m quite happy with that.. how i wish everything is as smooth sailing as this..
i m always doing all the wrong things at the wrong time.. =]
i m beginning to enjoy being alone.. although my mind do wonder off to god-knows-where.. and think of what-nots.. i enjoy the tranquility.. like just now.. oops.. i fell asleep.. haha.. but.. it was just a short 15mins nap..
going home soon.. after i blog.. and that will be round2.. gotta do material science tut..
oh.. a level results out tomorrow.. suddenly feel old.. good luck to all my juniors.. especially 04s65!
life is good slacking.. =] but that wont last long.. it's already week9!!! wake up--wake up--
money makes the world goes round.. i wanna make the world spin round and round.. show me the money..
znew left a note @20:26
Monday, February 27
oh.. yesterday was a torture.. haha.. coz my voice was too sexy.. was on the verge of losing it.. guess honey water really helps.. i drank that coz i didnt feel like drinking plain water.. so decided to put honey into my drinks.. and there it was.. my own honey water.. haha..i m really sleeping super early nowadays.. yepz.. 4+am.. hahaha.. and woke up at 10+.. dad offered me papa grandis.. but i din feel like driving.. so i told him.. i m not even taking jayden out.. hmm.. so woke up.. and left the house within 30mins..
went for dimsum buffet at hotel miramar with hi5.. only to realise that i ate there before.. haha.. and once again.. my sexy voice.. i din really give a d*mn abt it.. so just ate whatever i wanted to.. we joked and laughed as if we own the restaurant.. din know jinfeng is joining us.. if not would have gracefully accepted the offer made by my dad.. oh.. and we decided to have a pri school gathering after so many years! it's been about 5years since our last gathering.. at first was a bbq at east coast.. but decided to upgrade to chalet.. probably getting ed or seng to book it.. hahaha.. cant wait.. actuallie it's quite interesting to have a gathering after so long.. wonder how everyone is doing and such.. it would be nice to see everyone once again.. i mean.. 8years since we graduate from our primary school!!! yea.. thinking if we should get the teachers as well? i mean.. that would be so much fun catching up with each other.. let's just hope there wont be any cliques and mini-gatherings among themselves instead.. argh.. the thought of it thrills me..
went ikea to get present for jayden.. jayden is 1mth old now.. =] bought him a red cushion.. a red heart-shaped cushion.. and a white box.. had hell lots of fun in ikea.. was climbing the beds.. and taking pictures as if that's my room.. hahaha.. yea.. giant playground for me.. guess i was really crazy then.. and they were as well.. they hid my shoes! so i had to walk around barefooted in the mini-room in search of my birki.. hahaha..
went over to anchorpoint for desserts.. the auntie is exceptionally rude today.. hrmpz..
left for eesiang's place.. ate cake.. and.. seng logged into friendster to send the msg on gathering to the others.. hahaha.. yes.. we sent the msgs out! friendster is good.. but too bad.. we dont have all the contacts.. guess we have to rely on them to pass the message around..
today was fun.. so fun that i forgot i m supposed to do some work.. in the end.. i did nothing today.. how wonderful.. probably wont touch my lab report till tue.. coz there's physics ca on tue..
on why i like to sleep at wee hours.. i love the silence at night.. peaceful.. dont know why.. it seems to calm me down.. of course.. it stir up some other feelings as well.. i like to drive alone at times.. it makes me think.. listening to what the deejays have to say over the radio.. or just the lyrics of the songs.. perhaps jayden understands.. i shall try talking to jayden.. hahaha.. i m going crazy..
znew left a note @00:41
Saturday, February 25
hmm.. in case you start making wild guesses of what is that line.. it is just a reminder for myself.. to start studying and not get addicted online.. =]in less than 36hrs' time.. i have to wake up and start going school again till exam period.. this semester is freaking fast.. i hate saying goodbyes..
the week zoomed past me.. i think i achieved nothing.. time to start.. doubt i will.. haha..
supposed to give my brother tuition.. but he doesnt want to.. postponed to tmr..
hmm.. oh.. i m amazed at my energy level.. slept at 4+.. woke up at 6+ to send my sis to sch coz she has frisbee match.. then came home to sleep again for another 5hours.. haha.. i think my body is scolding me..
and my itunes has 1067 songs now! how i wish they were money.. hahaha.. i welcome people to send me songs! thank you for contributing.. =]
chatted with a friend for quite long last night.. recalled alot of memories.. thought through.. hmm..
znew left a note @19:44
Friday, February 24
记得四个月前我对我自己说一句话..想不到四个月后..我又重复那一句话..不同的是..这次我似乎更难说服自己..
我已经越陷越深..无法自拔..
znew left a note @16:50
o... jayden hits 2122 this afternoon..
hmm.. played mahjong till like 4+ am.. and reached home at 5am..
i m beginning to like the thrill of driving early in the morning.. i swear i wasnt tired to the extent of falling asleep.. i just love the feeling of having less cars on the road.. and driving at the speed that u only bothers if u have hit the speed limit or dashed across the junction when it's on red.. and rushing home coz u dont know what you will see when you're on the roads..
i had a nightmare.. i dreamt that i was out driving with a group of friends in jayden.. and.. a friend warned us that we'll see things we arent suppose to see.. and indeed.. we saw.. a few in fact.. that really freaked me out..
slept for merely 5+hours before disrupted to run errand once again..
oh.. i was lost on my way to lentor place last night.. went there to pick my sis up.. haha.. poor instructions given to me by her fren.. and i simply love driving papa grandis out..
hmm.. i seriously need to study.. and to scrimp and save.. no more joke.. no more fun.. no more shopping..
what i have bought should be enough to curb my shopping desire for the next 1-2mths until exams end... i hope...
oh.. i m losing my voice once again.. i thought it was just my everyday routine of voice breaking overnight yesterday.. but woke up this morning to find out that flu is the one..
hmm.. i think i m beginning to let go.. that's after a few days of thinking through.. i hope this time.. it's for real.. and for good..
znew left a note @14:28
Thursday, February 23
spent alot today.. went on shopping spree.. haha.. yes.. finally after so long.. i guess it's not too bad.. coz i only do this kinda thing once a month.. on the rest of the days.. i either buy nothing.. or just 1 or 2 items.. hmm.. here's the breakdown of what i spent on..-haircut..
-white berms..
-3/4 jeans..
-3 pairs of earrings..
-3 nail polish incl. base coat..
-a pair of shades..
-a pink car sign that says.. 'babe on board' =]
-my sis's bday bear..
-my dinner..
i think that's all.. but should be about 150? hahaha.. which is real bad..
znew left a note @20:58
Wednesday, February 22
it hurts to hear jayden making loud noises on the roads..it hurts to see the meter hitting 3000rpm..
it hurts to experience sudden brake in jayden..
it simply hurts to see jayden.. mal-treated..
znew left a note @23:08
hmm.. msn has altered the meaning of 'haha'..'haha' no longer simply means laughter on msn..
it could be just a 4 letter word to cover up sadness.. disappointment.. or when you're speechless..
guess most of us do not even laugh within us when we type that..
technology has certainly changed the way we interact with people.. citing hp as an example.. it brings us closer.. and further at the same time.. it enables us to catch up with friends we seldom meet.. at the same time.. we have certainly make full use of technology.. to build and destroy relationships..
oh.. this is just a random entry..
znew left a note @15:37
Tuesday, February 21
it doesnt always pay for being kind and nice to people..znew left a note @21:54
hie.. yet another day gone.. 6 more days to the end of the recess week.. this is freaking fast.. i have done nothing.. except sleeping.. stoning and having fun..din go training today.. was terribly ill.. after sending jayden to its facelift.. took a cab home.. and slacked and slept till dinner time.. slacked again after dinner.. watched campus superstar.. fell in love with adriano head over heel..
and was talking about the nyp girl caught in act.. poor girl.. but from comments from those who watched the video.. it was like she's willing to do it.. and she even adjusted the camera herself.. what the.. has she ever considered how her parents would feel if they watch this? she has just ruined her own life.. her own future with that one click.. to record.. even if she din record.. it's not very nice of her to do that to herself..
i m totally disgusted at the thought of it.. dont even wanna watch.. heard it's a long video..
and that the girl is cute.. like the prettiest in cheerleading.. but accordin to the papers.. she's no longer in nyp..
haiz..
what is the world coming to?
znew left a note @02:24
Monday, February 20
smth bad happened again!hmm.. first was.. summon.. then scraped.. then now.. lost a bag of socks..
went for dinner with alvin and edwin today.. after buying 3 pairs of socks.. i passed the bag to alvin at the entrance of icon.. then we went to walk around in the building.. by the time we finished roaming the building and headed to liang seah st for desserts.. we realised the bag of socks is gone! back-tracked.. and found nothing..
this is damn freaky.. dont know what's wrong.. for no reason.. of the 4 plastic bags he was holding.. mine is gone.. is someone doing something funny behind the scene? is it one of the afc crew?
znew left a note @01:30
Sunday, February 19
this is jayden on mt faber.. dark..soo shagged now.. came home at 0245.. almost fell asleep driving.. perhaps not because i m lack of sleep.. but rather coz i m not feeling well.. guess i was having fever.. and my throat was so painful that.. even just separating my upper and lower lips hurt..
i m not feeling well.. physically and mentally..
hmm.. dont wish to talk about that..
znew left a note @11:46
Saturday, February 18
just played mahjong.. wah.. tiring..znew left a note @00:42
Wednesday, February 15
北京一夜女：不想再问你 你到底在何方
不想再思量 你能否归来呖
带着你的心 想着你的脸
想捧在胸口 能不放就不放
男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
不管你爱与不爱 都是历史的尘埃
ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
不敢在午夜问路 怕走到了百花深处
女：人说百花地深处 住着老情人缝着绣花鞋
面容安详的老人依旧等待着那出征的归人
男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你可别喝太多酒
不管你爱与不爱 都是历史的尘埃
ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
把酒对月高歌的男儿 是北方的狼族
女：人说北方的狼族 会在寒风起站在城门外
穿着腐蚀的铁衣呼唤城门外 眼中含着泪
男：呜......我已等待了几千年 为何城门还不开
女：呜......我已等待了几千年 为何良人不回来
合：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
男：不敢在午夜问路 怕触动了伤心的魂
合：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 我留下许多情
男：不敢在午夜问路 怕走到了地安门
女：人说地安门里面 有位老妇人
犹在痴痴等面容安详的老人
依旧等待那出征的归人
男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你可别喝太多酒
走在地安门外 没有人不动真情
合：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你会流下许多情
不要在午夜问路 怕触动了伤心的魂（人）
男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING
女：不想再问你 你到底在何方
不想再思量 你能否归来呖
带着你的心 想着你的脸
想捧在胸口 能不放就不放
男：ONE NIGHT IN BEIJING 你会流下许多情
不要在午夜问路 怕触动了伤心的魂
understood the story behind this song today.. oh manz.. its meaning is so deep that.. i doubt we can tell the story by just looking at it..
it's a story of a girl.. who waited for her lover to return all her life.. her lover was summoned to the army.. to join the war.. she waited for so long.. that she died.. but coz she started waiting since she was young.. she din know she's old.. let alone.. she's dead..
however.. her lover did not return.. that's coz he had sacrificed his life for the country.. and.. the city gates are guarded by gods.. thus he cant return to his lover's dream to let her know about his death..
and.. in the end.. he gave up after years of waiting outside the gate.. and reincarnated.. into the man in the song.. the chinese born in the west..
the man.. was a little drunk.. he could have one night stands in beijing.. but in the song.. he is exchanging ideas with the woman.. and.. by the chatting.. it has triggered his memory as well.. of his previous life..
that's why.. he advised people not to drink so much.. and not to ask for directions.. in case.. u trigger some unhappy memories..
znew left a note @22:50
Tuesday, February 14
happy valentine's day!what a sad vday.. haha.. one of the worst i ever had.. haha.. coz i have quiz and assignment is due today.. hahaha..
hahaha.. this is the so-called university life.. isnt it? hahaha..
oh.. these two songs are nice..
你那么爱他
直到爱消失你才懂得
去珍惜身边每个美好风景
只是他早已离去
直到你想通他早已经
不再对你留恋 最后的你
开始了一段挣扎 哦～～～
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他
这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他
为什么不把他留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己无法自拔
我爱的人
我知道故事不会太曲折
我总会遇见一个什么人
陪我过没有了她的人生
成家立业之类的等等
她做了她觉得对的选择
我只好祝福她真的对了
爱不到我最想要爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢
我爱的人不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神说明了
我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」
就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声
so true..
znew left a note @23:26
hmm.. jayden has more wounds now.. it hurts to see it getting hurt..not in the best of mood.. mainly due to jayden n stress from school.. damn.. just finished one assignment.. and tomorrow has 2 quizzes.. i think soo.. hope it's only one..
life sci sux.. it's interesting to read.. disgusting to memorise..
vday tmr.. so?
my beloved jayden..
may those culprits.. own up now..
o.. i m on fire now.. where's the fire extinguisher?
znew left a note @00:03
Sunday, February 12
oh.. desmond sent me an excel file.. that can analyse a person's character by his or her han yu pin yin name.. damn cool.. it is quite accurate.. quite only.. here's mine..◆草莓女孩
有自信，具魅力，爱做梦
◆性格
你是个非常有自信的人，因此打从心底相信自己是最完美的。虽然会符合他人所说的话，但心里所想的都是自己的事情，感受性很丰富而且善于编织美梦，所以容易让自己沉浸于象牙塔中。你的缺点是没有耐性，因为一直支持着你的是抽象的自信心，所以一旦事情的发展无法如预期般进展时，就会突然中断放弃，这是应该要改进的。
◆恋爱结婚
获取你的芳心其实非常简单，因为你一旦被奉承，就会变得得意洋洋而失去戒心。所以，万一你与对方一见钟情，他又对你百般的奉承，你们就很容易发生越矩的行为。而且你很容易陷入高学历的迷思之中，所以应该时时警惕自己，别受到误导，但是你结婚运势很高，与理想对象结合的机会应该很有希望。
znew left a note @12:27
went upper thomson's the roti prata shop for prata this morning.. at 4+.. their mushroom cheese is good.. it's so filling.. met meilin there.. think she was with her hall mates..oh.. those money.. were the pooled money from in between.. haha.. so it was like.. the loser paid it all.. hmm.. come to think of it.. there was no one loser.. since the one who won at mahjong lost at in between and vice-versa..
hmm.. thought alot last night.. i mean this morning before i collapse.. alot of things went through my mind.. regarding my previous entry..
was so tired that.. i black-out before i could figure out what is really happening now..
came home at 6+ this morning..
oh.. my angbao actually increased on the 14th day of cny.. thanks auntie!
argh.. i wanna know what is happening..
as much as i know.. curiosity kills the cat..
znew left a note @11:44
hmm.. i sense smth amiss.. hmm.. i hope i could help.. i knew i cant.. even if i could.. i knew i m not ready to do so..hmm.. it seems that.. there's something going on.. which.. i dont wish to acknowledge..
hmm.. how i wish.. the person involved.. would kindly explain what is happening now..
hmm.. it seems like.. history is going to repeat itself again.. argh.. why am i always involved in such shit?
hmm.. the sudden change in behaviour certainly was alarming enough for us to smell a rat.. obviously.. the insensitive ones arent able to do so..
hmm.. will.. the person please speak up?
hmm.. war? battle?
haha.. i think i m going crazy.. i dont know what i m typing..
nway.. was playing mahjong at siang's place.. lost like dont know what.. then switched to in-between.. and continued my losing streak.. haha.. luckily.. i was a little luckier.. haha.. and managed to recoup a little..
made ed do my life sci tut.. haha..
oh.. we went mustafa after my family dinner just now.. once again.. we created a scene inside.. haha.. the staff was so pissed with us.. and kept a close watch on us at the hardware section.. hmm.. then.. we decided to escape from his sight.. and went to read books..
here's what i read from a book.. by tim burton..
stick boy and match girl in love
stick boy liked match girl
he liked her a lot.
he liked her cute figure,
he thought she was hot.
but could a flame ever burn
for a match and a stick?
it did quite literally;
he burned up pretty quick.
znew left a note @03:53
Saturday, February 11
argh.. thaipusam thaipusam thaipusam.. so glad that it's an annual event.. if not.. i will be sooo dead.. wonder how i survived the past few thaipusams.. when they were on weekdays.. when i was still schooling.. with school uniforms.. and regular hours..hmm.. i have been hearing drum rolls.. cheers.. announcements.. whistling.. since yesterday..
hmm.. since like the only way for me to escape them is to sleep..
hmm.. should have stayed out today.. but.. was helping my mum out in the afternoon.. and then.. wanted to do marketing assignment..
haiz.. i think i should go somewhere now.. haha.. but where? jayden is out.. if not i'd most prob go someone's house and camped there..
oh.. suddenly have the idea that.. i should have get people to play mahjong overnight yesterday.. since.. the outside is much noisier than tha mahjong.. hahaha..
been sleeping in the morning.. i certainly see the need to tune my body clock..
argh..
for those who havent seen thaipusam live.. i dont mind showing you around the place next thaipusam.. i encourage everyone to watch it at least once.. with your own eyes.. and then.. you'll.. hopefully.. have more respect for them..
znew left a note @18:00
Thursday, February 9
hmm.. haha.. yet another week closer to exams.. haiz.. what have i studied? i dont know..hmm.. watched i not stupid too.. i salute jack neo's team.. for the excellent production.. the plot was rather predictable.. but that didnt really spoil the show.. the fact that it is.. soo down-to-earth.. close to heart.. never failed to touch me.. i dare say that i was at the verge of crying at a few parts of the show.. but.. my eyes were just brimming with tears.. and that was all.. they din make their way to my cheeks though..
hmm.. the lines in the show.. were just so familiar.. as if i have heard them elsewhere.. yes.. indeed.. from my parents.. my grandma.. its familiarity allowed us to relate to the show.. we are able to identify ourselves in the show.. as in.. find ourselves being in their positions at times.. and understand.. from others point of view at the same time..
it is a good show.. go and watch it..
hmm.. oh.. marketing lect today was.. crazy..
hmm.. once again.. we have attracted.. many stares.. and perhaps.. gasps.. from others.. with the commotion we created at the end of the lecture..
hmm.. so tired..
znew left a note @22:55
Wednesday, February 8
this is real bad.. i cant seems to find things i want to find..i can remember vividly i have seen those cds.. in december or january.. and most prob have placed them in the blue cd wallet.. but now.. i cant find the blue cd wallet!!!
had mat sci quiz today.. this is a bad start..
consistency is the key to success..
been home for more than 2hours.. did nothing..
znew left a note @21:41
Tuesday, February 7
i just gort myself a temporary tattoo on my ankle!!! the favourite spot which i love to do my henna on as well.. lalala..
i still dont see my nissan advantage card coming.. hmm.. i need to book an appointment for jayden already..
znew left a note @21:14
Sunday, February 5
did i mention that.. i saw a lamborghini on pie.. on my way home on saturday? sooo pretty.. and stylish.. oh manz.. i tried to keep up with it.. but failed..znew left a note @21:27
wow.. sooo full now.. just had steamboat at wini's place.. yes.. steamboat once again..it's nice to see each other after soo long.. met the seniors..
4 years above us.. which means.. they were j1s when we were sec1s.. joanne.. yilin.. shujun.. wilfred.. jingyi.. xiangbin..
3years.. eunice.. minghui.. adeline..
1year.. daphne.. yingjie.. chunyi..
and of course.. my dearest teammates.. wini.. siying.. and her beau.. junming.. tian couldnt make it as smth cropped up last minute..
hahaha.. we were talking and laughing like nobody's business.. gossiping.. and i guess junming is truly traumatised by the content.. hahaha.. shant elaborate..
it's so random at times..
when chunyi said xiangbin looks like an angbao in his red polo tee.. xiangbin said.. 'wanna reach inside me?'
when junming said he is in armour.. joanne said.. 'sungei blah.. oh.. that place has alot of dogs..'
wow.. what has that gotta do with armour? haha.. so there was silence..
and then.. she continued.. they bark.. and jingyi went..'what else can dogs do other than barking?'
and joanne said.. 'cant really see them anyway..'
and chunyi went..'so they are blacks..'
hahahahahahhaa..
sooo full now.. still have dinner later.. this is real bad..
time to study.. at least attempt to..
znew left a note @17:43
Thursday, February 2
hmm.. the long holiday is over.. haha.. back to school today..was arranging my collection of postcards.. and found some really cool ones.. they always remain my favourites.. haha.. they are those messages ones.. which was such a hit back in 2001..
going school is such a dread.. haha..