Wednesday, November 30
hmm.. here i come again.. haha.. wonder how many entries i would post this holiday.. hahaha..juz had mac's teppanyaki burger.. hmm.. not nice.. too much mayo.. haiz.. and.. aiyar.. not nice.. dont try.. hmm.. went town to run errand.. was thinking.. since fri.. i stepped into town everyday.. without fail.. except sat when i went sitex n fen's house.. hahaha.. this is bad.. hmm.. town isnt that exciting and interesting afterall.. seriously.. hmm..
hmm.. drove today! yeah.. i was soo happy to see my instructor's new car.. it's an orange vios.. a new car.. a new beginning.. i hope.. hahaha.. that sounds sooooo familiar hor.. weiling.. hahahaha.. okie.. vios is smaller than lancer.. so i felt that it was easier to manoevour.. hmm.. and.. it can reach a higher speed much faster than the lancer.. it could be that lancer was old.. hmm.. yah.. i think soo.. and i feel really at ease with vios.. haha.. like everything is under my control.. did several exciting things today.. haha.. cheong at 70km/h.. okie.. guess alot have done that.. but it was kinda difficult with lancer then.. haha.. did parallel parking on the roads!! haha.. into a narrow lot.. i would say.. and came out.. haha.. sense of satisfaction.. hmm.. horn-ed at some uncle who neglect my prescence.. how can someone miss an orange car? haha.. i love the colour.. really.. soo unique.. so different.. as in.. usually.. instructors' cars arent in those cool striking colours ya? haha..
hmm.. finally gort my campus account done properly.. yah.. after 3.5months.. haha.. i was too lazy.. it'd probably be another 3-4 weeks before i get the card.. the account comes with a cheque book.. haha.. so i have a cheque book now.. not gonna use it anyway.. but this is only temporary.. the formal one would be with my name printed below.. like those my dad has.. haha.. sounds soo coool.. sounds only.. hmm.. probably would cancel the a/c upon graduation.. coz.. the min balance to maintain w/o paying service charge is high.. hmm.. haizz.. shall go check out their privelledges later.. haha..
oh.. so bored.. i m falling asleep..
23rd dec.. 03s65 gathering at chow's place.. food and cost.. settle later..
byeee.. for now..
znew left a note @15:46
Tuesday, November 29
i m back.. haha..gym won gold!!!!! oh manz.. they are damn zai.. it might have been better with sanmay not retiring.. hmm..
okie.. done.. byee..
as much as i m bored.. i m not in the mood to blog..
znew left a note @22:34
hmm.. just woke up.. haha.. this is bad.. i m sleeping at all the odd timings.. haha.. hmm.. slept from 6 till now.. still feeling quite full from buffet..hmm.. what have i ate.. hmm.. 1 tofu, 2 tamago sushi, 1 beancurd sushi, 1 softshell crab, 2 shitake tempura, 1 sotong tempura, 2 chawanmushi, 1 unagi handroll, 1.5 glass of guava juice.. these are not quoted in plates.. they are in units of items.. haha.. but.. the buffet was not bad.. really.. given u can have lobster salad sushi and sashimi.. not to mention oysters.. haha.. abt $20 per person.. 12-5.30pm.. last order at 5.. haha..
hmm.. butt very pain from cycling.. been almost a year since i last cycled.. haha.. my arms were aching also.. coz i have to stretch to to the handle bar.. hee.. hmm.. the weather was nice.. sunny yet windy.. so was enjoying the breeze all along.. i love the sun.. i realise how much i miss outdoor activities.. haiz.. yes.. sentosa on saturday.. yea!!!!
hmm.. lq and dt brought lenith and jeremy along for buffet.. jeremy came for cycling also.. hmm.. haha.. so i was a lil bored during buffet after lenith came.. but soon.. jeremy left.. hmm.. dont know.. hmm.. as in.. aiyar.. sometimes.. just feel a lil out of place when they r lovey-dovey with them.. hahaha.. i m crazy.. but.. i guess i dun mind their prescence.. since they never fail to bring joy and laughter to the occassion.. =]
gonna drive tomorrow morning.. 9am.. wonder what time i can sleep.. hopefully.. i can force myself to sleep by 2am..
ohz.. i made a mistake in reading the banner at balcony.. it's 1-for-1 from 1500-2100 from nov onwards.. except special events.. not in nov only..
hmm.. balcony balcony balcony.. i wanna go there one day.. even though i dont drink..
sports bash tonight.. hahaha.. but so? i dont club.. huiyi asked me if i m going.. siao.. hahaha..
znew left a note @20:45
hmm.. meeting at aljunied at 9am.. and.. i m still awake.. haha.. i m suffering from lack of sleep.. i need to sleep.. yes.. alot of sleep.. probably gonna sleep my day away on wed.. haha.. hopefully.. hmm..hmm.. sat.. goin sentosa with partial a29.. hmm.. i shall stay at home after tmr.. shall.. and i think i will.. time to be guai.. coz.. told mum juz now abt east coast later.. and.. she commented tt i play all day long.. hmm.. so perhaps.. it's time for me to stay home.. if not she's gonna nag again for sat.. haha..
hmm.. planning to drive on wed and fri morn.. hmm.. ideal time wld be 9 or 10.. haha.. hope i m awake..
hmm.. there seems like a whole list of things for me to do..
hmm.. i think i should go for cheryl's recording on next tue.. 6th dec..
hmm.. sometimes.. i reallie wonder why i bother to keep myself so occupied during holidays.. isnt holidays supposed to be days for you to rest? hmm.. all i can say of myself is that.. i dont know how to say no when ppl ask me out for events.. haha.. ya.. i dunnoe refusal.. unless i m reallie occupied on that day.. i will accept the invitation.. hmm.. i think that isnt a right thing..
hmm.. watched e zuo ju episode 9.. i love this episode.. zhi shu[zs] and xiangqin[xq].. haha.. hmm.. wanted to type some of their developments.. but.. decided not to.. i m plain lazy.. gonna watch episode 10 tmr.. yes! oh no.. it's finishing.. onli 13 episodes.. haiz..
hmm.. class gathering for 65 on 23 dec.. but.. the 4 of us are not planning to organise it.. it's a tedious thing.. i m sick of it.. haha..
hmm.. soo.. i m supposed to buy a xmas present for my loyal reader-weiling.. haha.. at first i thought it was.. anonymous..[as in.. unknown..] soo.. was thinking of what to get that is unisex.. now.. i m given details.. i dont know if these specifications are a good thing.. hmm.. haha.. okie.. i shall look around and see what i can get for her.. pragmatic? hmm.. hmm.. i dont know lar..
hmm.. irony.. when we r studying for our papers.. we long for holidays.. long for a shopping trip.. but when hols is here.. and get to shop like hell.. it seems that there's nothing for me to buy.. seriously.. nothing interest me enough to want to get them.. hmm.. i have given it serious thoughts.. reallie.. nothing.. absolutely nothing at all.. hmm..
watched mtv of shan hu hai.. over and over.. hmm.. it's in my lappie.. it's the lyrics that i like.. i realise.. hmm..
hmm.. i cant wait for myself to pass my driving.. it seems like.. there's a whole list of things for me to do.. places to visit after i pass.. i better pass.. hm.. time to focus on driving.. not playing.. hmm..
james blunt's.. goodbye my lover.. is my current fav song.. hmm.. it's a reallie nice song.. i love it.. gonna cheong up my top played list.. haha..
James Blunt-Goodbye my Lover
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won
So I took what's mine by eternal right
Took your soul out into the night
It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you if you'd only care
You touched my heart you touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you
I've kissed your lips and held your head
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well, I know your smell
I've been addicted to you
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
I am a dreamer but when I wake
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take
And as you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry
I've seen you smile
I've watched you sleeping for a while
I'd be the father of your child
I'd spend a lifetime with you
I know your fears and you know mine
We've had our doubts but now we're fine
And I love you, I swear that's true
I cannot live without you
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
And I still hold your hand in mine
In mine when I'm asleep
And I will bear my soul in time
When I'm kneeling at your feet
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
znew left a note @02:31
Monday, November 28
the choc cornflakes.. they are really good.. =] thanks..
znew left a note @17:57
this is our dear wee pui seng.. look out for him in the papers.. hahaha.. he's representing singapore in -90kg mens in manila 2005.. the funny thing is.. he's not playing in manila.. in cebu instead.. hahaha.. 2nd dec.. i'm waiting to hear from u.. =] 
znew left a note @17:52
in the end.. my schedule for today was totally different from what i planned.. haha.. met zn in the morning at 11 to get smth from him.. talked a lil over a drink at secret recipe.. he treated.. haiz.. made me feel bad.. coz he just went to the counter and paid.. haha.. the funny thing was.. the waitress freezed there while waiting for the receipt and change.. so he just asked her to keep the change.. off to buy tickets to watch emily rose.. rotted all the way from 12-3.. walked around in ps before heading down heeren and taka.. saw my nike bag in taka!!!! haiz.. forget it.. haha.. okie.. saw the blue le coq sportif bag.. made him don it.. he ended up liking it.. hmm.. walked all the way back to ps again.. watched emily rose.. not as scary.. not as nice.. it was okie onli.. but the girl.. hmm.. she reallie looks horrible enough during possession.. hahaha.. hmm.. okiee.. took train to taka to get the bag with him..
hmm.. it was a tub of chocolate coated cornflakes from marks n spencer.. it's.. very very very nice!!!!!
hmm.. it's nice catching up with a friend.. after soo long.. we were in the same class during 1st 3 months.. hmm.. wonder what keeps us as friends who would bother to catch up with one another once in a while.. hmm.. he kinda updated me on khoonliat and some others.. mainly uk.. haha.. ohz. i earned 5 bucks today for doing a survey.. was at the shop helping lq buy screen protector film.. this lady approached us.. not a sgrean.. asked us to help her do survey.. it was simple one.. on 2 phones.. any 2.. one tt we like.. de other tt we dun like.. haha.. she gave us $5 each.. she is from ntu.. mae phd student.. wah wah wah..
hmm.. cancelled the dinner date with seng n jon.. coz jon wasnt feeling too well.. ended up eating dinner with alvin n weiling.. he foot the bill.. hmm.. walked around in bugis.. went raffles city.. took pics of the xmas tree.. off to esplanade.. and then.. to merlion.. next to fullerton.. boat quay.. home.. shagged.. met yitian at farrer park to get the notes to pass to weilon and puiseng.. reachd home at 2130.. bathed.. rest.. charged hp.. off again at about 2300.. haiz.. i wonder why i make myself so tired and all.. hmm..
hmm.. it's quite maddening to have people being so on about the event.. and not turning up for it in the end..
hmm.. met liquan to go airport.. seng called when i was on my way.. to talk about jon.. hmm.. i m worried for him.. haiz.. he arh..
hmm.. chatted with lq and dt through the night.. played abit of bridge.. haha.. our greatest achievement.. booking each other for the holiday! we planned our weekly outing.. oooh.. so exciting.. cant wait.. haha..
i m currently not available on the following dates: 29/11, 7/12. 13/12, 23/12 and 31/12..
haha.. going cycling at east coast tmr.. followed by suki sushi buffet.. sheesh.. i need to exercise..
all my monday evenings are taken up by trainings.. sianz..
hmm.. i m still quite sleepy.. came home at 0900.. slept till 1500.. but cant afford to sleep further.. if not i wont be able to sleep tonight..
i cant blog.. dunnoe what to blog..
znew left a note @17:24
Sunday, November 27
just came back from fen's 21st bday party.. haha.. it wasnt as boring as i thought it would be.. perhaps coz i m closer to this group of cousins.. and my small aunt is there too.. we played lame games.. reallie lame..hmm.. first.. my bro, small uncle, fen's bf[nian-gao] and his fren[kelvin] played showhand.. their chips are food.. so there were cake, konyaku jellies, mango puddings, grass jelly, hard-boiled eggs and watermelons.. haha.. so they kept on adding more and more portions.. and the one with the lousiest card will have to eat those in the centre up.. it's fun.. reallie.. not the eating part..
hmm.. it's hard arranging for gatherings.. i hate the process of doing so.. being busy isnt a good thing afterall.. i m feeling tired.. my sunday is booked.. almost.. morning.. meet zn to get smth from him.. talk more abt him later.. afternoon.. tian wanna meet me to pass me a note to pass to pui.. evening.. dinner with jon n seng.. then.. off to somewhere to stayover to send pui off on mon morn.. then.. ktv with si and tian.. oh manz.. i cant believe i m doing this to myself after exams.. wanted to play mahjong at chenglong's place today.. heng i din.. i m so tired..
hmm.. on zn.. he suddenly sms-ed me today.. and said he got me smth for my bday.. weird guy.. yah.. that's him.. okie.. so i m supposed to meet him tomorrow to get it.. it's.. smth.. u cant get it in sg.. and.. it's dying.. wow..
hmm.. went expo for sintex 2005 just now.. din buy anything in the end.. coz.. i realised. a webcam isnt tt necessary after all.. hmm.. alvin managed to buy his viewsonic lcd monitor and genius webcam.. desmond bought a set of speakers.. delivering to his place on mon.. my bro bought a 512mb mmc card at 60 and sis bought 256 one at 30.. hmm..
travelled all the way from expo to boonlay! not tt far actuallie..
i m tired..
znew left a note @02:36
Saturday, November 26
i m here.. waiting to go sintex 2005.. thinking of what to get there.. hmm.. a webcam? what else.. portable hard disk? like no need for it now.. coz i partitioned my hard disk yesterday using partition magic.. so all my mp3s are on my partition..i m all so excited to send pui off on mon morn.. more coz there will be a little class gathering on sun night at dt's place.. only girls though.. coz the guys in ns lar.. haiz.. but he's.. sooo grateful to us now.. he was a lil disappointed at first.. coz.. 2 years back.. alot of ppl sent him off.. but now like no one.. coz his guys friends most in ns.. ya.. so we have to show our support to team singapore by sending him off!!! hahaha..
balcony is open.. i wanna go!
hmm.. thinking if i shld play overnight mahjong at chenglong's place tonight.. boonlay.. i will be there anyway.. yah.. wah.. tt's like.. 2 consecutive nights not at home.. coz sun going dt's place.. hmm.. then for the whole week.. onli fri sleep at home.. isnt tt abit overboard? i dont know.. haiz.. like i m treating my house more n more like hotel.. which is bad.. hmm.. i shall stay home more often this holiday.. dont know do what.. pick up dota maybe? hahaha..
hmm.. sianz.. 4 big pimples!! look like 4 chicken pox.. er xin..
znew left a note @13:15
exams are over.. but.. in the first place.. it din feel like it was exam when i was studyin for econs..went town again today.. ate at central restaurant.. hmm.. the baked rice isnt that fabulous.. coz.. i prefer the more burnt and warmer kind.. haha.. i m fussy..
hmm.. went heeren today.. balcony is opened! i like its deco.. the chair.. and.. it's 1-for-1 from 3-9pm.. 24hrs!!
znew left a note @00:35
Thursday, November 24
i m trying hard not to sleep and study.. hopefully drilling some things into my mind.. i m desperate.. why din i start studying earlier? haha.. given the choice to slack.. i would slack of course.. the momentum to slack and rot is there.. not for mugging.. what a sad thing that is..hmm.. being alone in hall isnt that great afterall.. i understand how tian felt last week.. hmm.. but she kinda used to it since that was what she did in bei-da..
hmm.. si moved her things over with her mum just now.. her mum is exceptionally cheerful today.. haha.. one of the rare occassions i see her grinning and laughing away.. nothing bad..
hmm.. went out of the campus for dinner.. with alvin.. his roomie and his neighbour.. hahaha.. it was great getting out of the campus.. the air outside ntu territory is much better! hahaha.. i m crazy.. hmm.. they bought alot of things at the pasar malam..
hmm.. cheryl is still in star idol!!! yea! i shall watch the next recording and result show.. hopefully it is not anywhere near my driving test.. i dun think will be.. tan yan and ben koh are out..
hmm.. how many hours more to my last paper.. and i m still here blogging away.. not studying.. i m doomed.. thinking if i should go sleep now.. hmm.. but tmr morning wake up.. sure not productive again.. haiz.. i m in dilemma..
hmm.. played with msn just now.. installed lots of plug-ins and deciphered the korean site.. hahaha.. it's fun.. let me escape from the harsh reality for quite some time..
hmm.. uni econs differ from jc's.. certainly.. even the graphs differ.. a lil..
hmm.. this entry is so incoherent.. every paragraph is talking about smth totally not related to the one before or after it.. fragments!
hmm.. girl went to buy the black nike bag for me.. funny why there is an increase in price over the weekend.. damn.. should have bought it on fri.. there's only 3 in sg.. i suppose.. that's if the salesgirl is honest.. and.. i m the 3rd.. dont know if it's a good thing.. maybe i will keep the bag and aunction it off.. haha.. it's limited!
hmm.. hmm.. i m like wasting my time here..
hmm.. time to get back to the textbook.. the textbook may be naggy.. but it's quite good at explanation.. at least i m learning smth from it.. that i dont seem to understand from the lect notes..
hmm.. i need to get.. a webcam.. speakers.. portable hard disk.. that's gonna cost me a bomb..
hmm.. i think i cant work this hol.. haiz.. gotta drive every few days.. and by the time i take my driving test.. i will be left with aboout 10 more days to start of sch.. hmm.. hope the tuition agency calls to give me 1 or 2 upper sec assignments.. that's enough..
hmm.. i m still.. thinking if i should stay hall.. perhaps i will go discuss with my dad this weekend.. the idea of staying is not bad.. seriously.. it's.. killing 2 birds with 1 stone.. i m doing both myself and si a favour.. in fact.. it's her family.. hahaha.. i m thinking too much.. hmm.. i can save time and money on travelling while she can spend more time with her mum who is alone at home most of the time.. hmm..
hmm.. and.. i love my roomie.. i can study with her around.. ya.. i need someone to 'watch' over me to make sure i study.. these few days.. so unproductive without her prescence..
hmm.. i wanna listen to love of my life by queen.. gotta locate my cd.. haiz.. and.. perfect moment.. all from meteor garden.. hahaha.. i m crazy..
hmm.. xiuling's nick was.. 'guys are like parking lots.. the good ones are taken and those left are disabled'.. haha.. i laughed a great deal at her nick.. oh manz.. i bet those single guys will disagree.. insisting that they are just reserved.. 'red boxes'.. hahaha..
long entry isnt it? i m trying to get myself to either pass my sleeping hour.. or.. make myself sleepy enough to collapse..
hmm.. i miss the zhu chao in toa payoh.. but.. i dont know what is that place called.. only know the driving directions there.. from my house.. haha.. this is bad.. i m crazy.. hmm..
if only mei xiang and toa payoh place can merge.. coz.. they have different signature dishes.. hahaha..
what shit am i talking? time to sleep.. in 6 mins' time..
0330.. i shall wake up.. by.. 1000.. so that i can go take a shower.. n.. hopefully.. be ultra productive.. i desperately need to.. no time no time no time..
hmm.. my giant pimple is not drying up with artistry spot treatment gel..
hmm.. maybe cos i have been sleeping late.. i also dont know what i was busy with.. stoning i suppose.. been doing that most of the time in hall..
hmm.. and the weather is soo nice.. soo cold.. today was slightly better.. abit warmer.. abit more sunny..
hmm.. my back is killing me..
hmm.. i miss.. bbq chicken wings n wu xiang from macpherson.. but i wont get to eat that this weekend.. since we're going boonlay for fen's bday.. i mean coming back to boonlay.. what a place..
hmm.. driving on mon morn.. better call sunny song tmr.. i mean later..
hmm.. and i dunnoe if tian can still k.. bet she forgot all abt k-ing on mon..
hmm.. hopefully.. jay's and stef's new songs are out..
hmm.. and hopefully.. src's activity rm is booked.. so we dun need to train on that day..
hahaha.. time to go.. byee!!!!
znew left a note @03:30
Wednesday, November 23
marks n spencer redcurrant puffs.. nice.. delicious.. haha.. choya.. not very nice.. barely drank 10% of it.. and capped it before putting it back to the fridge.. hmm.. haizz..
made a collage of photos using picasa.. love it.. =]
znew left a note @14:34
hmm.. i wanna try choya later.. but.. si is coming with her mum in the morning.. so i better not do it.. haiz.. gotta maintain my impression in front of her mum.. hahahaha..
hmm.. went hall 14 for dinner with alvin n his friend.. walked all the way there in the freaking cold weather.. it rained the whole of today.. soo nice to nua3 and not do anything.. but.. forced myself to read econs notes.. READ only.. i doubt anything went in.. and.. was soo tempted to arrange mp3s again in between my reading.. haha.. i m so excited.. i have 500+ songs now..
hmm.. managed to get those songs in my mini out!! haha.. yes.. i found the way to do it.. hahaha.. it's actually a very simple thing.. hmm..
hmm.. made ppl send songs to me.. hahaha..
hmm.. went to return the keys to office.. felt very bad.. coz the person asked for the network cable.. n passed me the key to get it.. little does he know tt i m holding onto a key as well.. hmm.. so went down to return him the network cable.. gonna ask si to get the network cable tmr.. hahaha.. we're damn bad!!!
hmm.. hmm.. getting warmer.. maybe coz i m cuddled up like a ball.. in blanket.. or maybe.. i m heaty..
hmm.. sianz sia.. i m glad alot of things in my lappie is back in order as if it hasnt crashed..
hmm.. gotta watch star idol today.. she msg-ed me.. hahaha.. with all the means to vote her..
catch cheryl ng.. huang jia hui.. on star idol.. today.. from 2000-2100.. on channel 8..
voting is from.. 2000-2200.. sms F2 to 71888 or call 1900-112-6602..
cant bliff i m actually doing this for her..
wanted to watch result show.. but think i cant finish studying econs.. so better not risk it.. sorrry girl..
i will root for you here!
that's her..
znew left a note @01:42
Tuesday, November 22
this is what i have in my fridge.. bought asahi and choya.. the gold red bull is left behind by tian.. hahaha.. i m just so bored..
znew left a note @00:50
Monday, November 21
it's so nice to sleep in on a rainy day.. i was disturbed by ibm engineer though.. he called to say that he's coming when the appointment was fixed at 2pm.. hmm.. but nvm.. that means i can have my lappie earlier.. he changed the hard disk for me.. hahaha.. he's HIP.. uses n70 and his ringtone is ye qu.. oh manz.. hmm..ohz.. i left my recovery cds at home.. so asked si to bring hers for me.. hmm.. loaded all 6 discs and blah.. forced myself to study while waiting.. failed attempt.. hmm.. spent the whole day downloading the programs and ripping cds.. still not completed.. hmm.. shall just leave it as it is first.. and do them after friday.. i lost alot of songs.. need to find them again.. haizz..
bitcomet isnt working in hall.. sianz.. so no e zuo ju.. unless i go over to huiyi's place after she has downloaded.. not too far.. jurong east only.. hahaha.. but i m supposed to be studying.. haizz..
hmm.. had dinner at cant13.. quite nicee.. shldnt have ordered pork though.. chicken is more tender.. hahahaha..
din do anything for the whole day except helping my lappie to regain its memory.. tried studying at night.. failed again.. gonna sleep early if i m still so inefficient..
on sunday night.. after dinner.. dad n mum sent me back to hall.. it was a pleasant suprise to open the door.. the place was clean.. and neat.. including my table.. then i found 4 pieces of post-it notes.. written by tian.. haha.. that's sweet of her.. reallie..
tmr is my last day in the hall.. official day i mean.. so i gotta return office the key.. how sianz.. should i continue staying?
znew left a note @22:30
Sunday, November 20
i love walking around aimlessly.. alone.. hmm.. went town today.. part of it only though.. went centrepoint.. to get present for fen.. and then.. decided to go marks n spencer to look for raisin covered in belgian chocolate.. the store has a new outlook.. it has a cafe.. but.. it's no longer for sale.. haiz.. that's my all-time make-me-happy food.. so.. too bad.. hmm.. bought the raspberry tartlets instead.. they are nice too.. just not as make-me-happy as the raisins chocolates.. remember those days when 03s65 would share the packet and finish it in no time.. hmm.. i miss 03s65..
went ps.. in hope of getting the chocolate.. hmm.. but.. still.. it wasnt available.. hmm.. i suppose it has been removed from the rack.. even the star pasta is not there anymore.. suddenly.. felt that there's so many changes made to marks n spencer.. hmm..
my brothers are getting n70 and 6680.. damn it.. yes.. i was the one who saw the advertisement in papers.. then i showed the big one.. hmm.. haiz.. then the small one also want.. soo.. they went to get the phones! it;s.. $638 with $200 trade-in.. bundle for n70 and 6680.. yah.. it's worth it.. i think.. haizzz...
been using this phone.. for.. 1.5yrs now.. hmm.. i want a new phone.. hahaha.. no nice phone now though.. i wanna get a nokia one..
bought quite a number of things from carrefour.. bought choya.. asahi.. mr brown coffee.. 2 cup noodles.. chu qian yi ding ma you noodles.. ba jiong.. chicken broccoli n cheese chunky.. cheddar n sour cream ruffles.. gonna bring some eggs to hall.. wanted to buy vitasoy.. but couldnt find it.. maybe out of stocks..
now i m alone at home.. coz dad is in town.. girl in pulau ubin.. sis out studying.. mum n 2 brothers at taka buying phones.. hmm..
did something stupid juz now.. almost killed my lappie.. my hard disk was stuck inside.. then.. couldnt get it out.. forced the cover in and.. managed to pull the hard disk out.. phew.. attachd the cover to the hard disk then slot it back again.. i thought i was doomed..
hmm.. think i m going back to hall later.. alot of things to do when i get back.. gotta clean up the place.. clear some place for si's stuffs..
still considering if i should stay next sem..
i m repeatedly playing shan hu hai.. hmm..
gonna locate my meteor garden's soundtrack.. have the sudden desire to listen to love of my life by queen..
znew left a note @18:34
went yishun for bbq just now.. my 12-yr-old cousin's bday party cum family gathering.. hmm.. it was okie at the start.. before boredom sets in at 10+.. talked to a friend over the phone.. then played with my young cousins.. who are less than half of my age.. about 5-7 years old.. hmm.. i wasnt in a good mood today.. i dont know why.. perhaps coz.. i couldnt get over certain things still.. so was hoping i could get over it and get on with life..
was rotting at the senior citizens' workout corner.. then an idea struck my sis and i and we stepped on each of the pedal for the cycling station.. holding the bar.. we moved the pedals up and down.. forward and backward.. hahaha.. it was damn fun.. so we dragged our brother along.. but.. due to the difference in weight.. it was a tragedy.. haha.. we recorded videos.. it was hilarious.. really.. gonna upload to my lappie once it's well.. they've made my day.. =]
hmm.. i think i will get a portable 2.5" hard disk.. it will be used to store mp3s and all.. as a backup drive.. yar.. i m terrified by the serious of bad events occured recently.. jon suggested not doubling apple up as both a mp3 player and a hard disk.. i think so too.. since it was meant to be a mp3 player..
hmm.. i m supposed to go back hall on sun night.. still thinking..
hmm.. i m still thinking if i should continue staying hall.. afterall.. it's almost 3hrs of travelling daily we're talking about.. hmm..
znew left a note @00:50
Saturday, November 19
原来..电视能激发那么多的想法..原来守护一个人是件那么辛苦的事..
不喜欢那些搞暧昧的人..的确..暧昧让人受尽委屈..乎冷乎热..乎近乎远..我并不是在针对任何人或事..只是..看完电视后的一些感触..
现今都会人的恋情好多都建在手机短讯上..不知这现象究竟健不健康..
浪漫手机的部分歌词..
想关上这城市所有的灯光..黑暗中专心闻你的发香..这夜晚..让暗恋很有画面感..
原来爱情可以来得这么突然..短信的桥梁..将暧昧期拉长..我们的感情蔓延滋长用文字培养..在虚拟土壤..
电视唱..吵杂的情歌还在拼命播放..我安静在闹区等来电铃响..想象..谁幸运的陪在你身旁..
好想知道你的100分..会给怎样的人..<理想情人>
自豪舆骄傲..率真舆直爽..他们只是一线之差..一旦不小心跨过那条线..你就会被标签为后者..
好想自己一个人静一静..却害怕独自一人面对四面墙..因为我相信我的眼泪也许会不由自主地往下滑..纵然我是多么不想哭..可是..心想..其实..留泪并不是什么丢脸的事..为何我那么排斥呢?
还在想明晚是否该回宿舍..可是..晚上将会超闷..因为..没电脑..叹..
我想我害怕孤独..
多希望能化悲愤为力量..
znew left a note @15:12
我觉得我疯了..竟然可以在一天内写那么多篇日记..我心情不是很愉快..我想是基于几个原因吧..唯有他们的综合反应才能有如此特效..一个人的忍耐限度到底在哪里?我好想知道..
也许我受够了某些事..某些人..我好想知道答案..
女人最重要是忠于自己..那是胡婷婷上桃色蛋白质说的..在不开心的时候..去做些自己喜欢..去做些自己很想从事的活动..例如听音乐或逛街等..最重要的是..那是一个能让你感到快乐些的途径..我还在摸索中..
我现在很想听珊瑚海..
我也想听I THINK I LOVE U..
缘分到底是什么?有人能回答我吗?
已经是凌晨两点了..我却没有一丝倦意..我害怕入梦..我怕我会梦见些我不愿看到的画面..我怕我会胡思乱想..
我想..是时候我将我的重心转移至课业上了..是时候忘却一切..
我想..其实我不想多想..想那么多只会让自己的心情陷入更低潮..
我想..这一切都是命中注定的..命里有所终需有..命里无时莫强求..我需要明白并接受其句中道理..
真的好爱这首韩语歌..希望你也喜欢..也许你因该看看浪漫满屋..这样你就会爱上它..
希望这一切都会有好的回报..
我该走了..
这几天已经够精彩了..
好累..
我好想好好地睡一觉..
真的很想..
znew left a note @01:59
Friday, November 18
hmm.. i not in mood to do anything.. nothing at all.. i dont know why.. haiz.. something is wrong with me.. seriously.. what the.. this shouldnt be the case.. i have already played for a week.. time to get back to the notes again.. but i just cant bring myself to doing it.. perhaps coz my lappie is not here with me.. i have grown dependence on it.. or perhaps it's the internet.. i cant seem to be able to live a day without coming online.. be it msn or blogging.. or just surfing.. this is bad..hmm.. haiz.. i need to study.. and i know that..
hmm.. sometimes.. i wonder.. why is it that u will get to know this person.. and eventually become friend with him/her.. is this what they call yuan2 fen4? hmm.. then why is it tt.. sometimes.. they said.. a couple who break up gort yuan2 no fen4? hmm.. i wonder what is the definition of yuan2 fen4.. hmm..
hmm.. how i wish..
how i wish i have the motivation to mug for econs paper..
how i wish i have the courage to do things i have always wanted to do..
how i wish i have passed my driving..
how i wish i could turn back time..
how i wish things hasnt turned for the worse..
how i wish.. how i wish.. how i wish.. how i wish..
my wishful thinkings..
znew left a note @23:51
korean and translated lyrics for i think i love you.. as well as pronounciation.. simply love the words.. it's beautiful.. somehow.. i juz.. gan2 chu4 liang2 duo1 after reading the lyrics.. hmm..사랑을 잘 모르겠어 이렇게 다가올 줄 날 몰랐었어내 마음조차 그 사람앞에서는 내 뜻대로 안돼이럴 줄 알았더라면처음부터 시작하지도 않았어바보처럼 이제와서야 난 이미 늦은 후회를 하고 있어니가 사랑이 되지 않기를 빌었어너만은 절대로 아니기를 빌었어 넌 사랑이 아닐걸라고 수도 없이 나를 속여왔어잠시 스쳐가는 인연이길 바랬어아픈 상처만 내게 남겨질테니까하지만 알면서도 너의 모든 것이 욕심이나잡고 싶어-간주중-잘못된 시작이라고.그렇게 쉽게 생각 했었는데언제든 부를 수 있을꺼라고 난 믿었었는데어떻게 말해야 할지 어디서 부터가 잘못된 건지이사랑을 피해야 하는데니 모든게 너무 그리워져니가 사랑이 되지 않기를 빌었어너만은 절대로 아니기도 빌었어넌 사랑이 아닐걸라고 수도 없이 나를 속여왔어잠시 스쳐가는 인연이길 바랬어아픈 상처만 내게 남겨질테니까하지만 알면서도 너의 모든 것이 욕심이나이젠 너 아니면 아무의미 없는데이제 나도 나를 어쩔수가 없는데너를 지워야만 한다는 사실이 오늘도 난...더 힘들게 해
发音：sa rang er zar mo ru ge soyi re ke da ga or zur nan mor ra sone ma em zo ca gu sa ram a pe so nunne du de ro an dyeyi rer zur a ra de ra miuce em bu te shi zek ha ji do a na so ba bo ce rem yi je wa se yan n ayi mi nu zun hu hye rur ha go yi soni ga sa rang yi dye ji an kirur bi re sono man en zer de ro a ni girur bi re sonen sa rang yi a nir ge ra go su do eb she na rur so ge wa sokam shi su ce ga nun yin en yi gir ba re soa pu sang ce man ne ge man ge jir te ni ggaha ji man ar meiu se done ei mo dun ge shi yo simi nazab go si pezar mo day shi zak yir a go gu re ke syub ge seng gakhe se nun deien je dun bu rur su yi sur ge ra go nan mi de se nun deyo de ke mar he ya har ji o di se bu te ga zar mo dyen gen jiyi sa rang er pi he ya ha nun deni mo dun ge ne mu gu ri wo zoni ga sa rang yi dye ji an ki rur bi re sone man en zer de ro a ni girur bi re sonen sa rang yi a nir ge ra go su do eb shi na rur so ge wa sozam shi su ce ga nun yin yen i gir ba re sea pun sang ce man ne ge nam ge jir te ni ggaha ji man ar men se done ei mo dun ge shi yok sim yi na yi je no na ni men a mu ei mi eb nun dayyi jen no do na rur o zzer su ga eb nun dayne rur ji wo ya man han da nun sa shi ri o nur do nardo him dur he he
歌词大意：
我不太懂 爱情 万万没想到 爱情就这样到来 在爱情面前 我的心依然不那么塌实
早知如此 当初我就不应该 开始象个傻瓜一样 到现在我才后悔我在祈祷 你不要爱我
我在祈祷 爱我的人不应该 是你
你一直在骗我 你我之间不可能有爱情 只有与我们擦肩而过的姻缘
如今只会给我留下痛苦 明知道这是不可能的事情 我却想拥有你的一切
因此越来越伤心 这是错误的开始 我一直把这个想的太简单了
我相信总有一天会找到你的我应该怎么做 到底从哪里开始发生了错误
想避开这段爱情 但你的一切变的那么可爱
我在祈祷你不要爱我 我在祈祷爱我的人不应该是你 你一直在骗我
你我之间不可能有爱情 只有与我们擦肩而过的姻缘
如今只会给我留下痛苦 明知道这是不可能的事情 我却想拥有你的一切
今不是你没有任何意义 如今我也拿你没有办法 想忘了你
这好象不可能 今天你还在我脑海里转 让我难过
znew left a note @20:13
chinese pronounciation for ming yun..洒那恩 加罗路给索
里罗克的无久拉母拉索
呀忙久查滴洒列拉古索路
列酷爹罗昂爹
一拉久 阿拉多拉谬
久路多西加卡机多哇拉索
趴不久龙一得哇所呀拉
于女久母诶于拉古一索
米卡撒拉一对西昂期路比罗索
罗吗录修期落啊里期路比罗索
龙洒拉一阿路库拉古苏波喔西拉路苏丢哇索
强期苏求拉路你牛你给巴类索
阿不桑求梦列给郎牛节给你噶
阿爹吗阿永索多诺爹龙里多西用西里拉阿
查古索果九
向不爹 西色一拉果
克罗克西僧个节索兰爹
翁节个朋丝里丝果那果
浪里果索浪爹
喔多给 阿类阿路几
喔滴苏路脱拉加路果罗几
路洒拉路里也呀拉龙爹
里末丢爹路末库里喔九
米卡撒拉一对西昂期路比罗索
罗吗录修期落啊里期路比罗索
龙洒拉一阿路库拉古苏波喔西拉路苏丢哇索
强期苏求拉路你牛你给巴类索
阿不桑求梦列给郎牛节给你噶
阿爹吗阿永索多诺爹龙里多西用西里拉阿
一九罗阿里给拉末诶里翁龙给
一加拉多拉罗喔九苏噶翁龙给
罗路几喔呀拉浪达路洒西喔龙哦用度拉阿
脱很多赫赫
znew left a note @20:11
took my hard disk back from sim lim this morning.. ibm is sending their engineers to my hall on mon to deliver me a new hard disk.. what great service they provide.. too bad.. they dont do data recovery.. so there goes my mp3s and those programs i have done.. haiz.. some things arent meant to be.. hahaha.. hmm.. sometimes.. i wonder.. hmm.. met weiling at bugis.. to shop.. my intention was to get out of the house.. that's all.. guess it wasnt that great shopping afterall when u din buy anything in the end.. hmm.. maybe it's me.. heard shan hu hai.. mai ya tang.. ye qu.. i think i love you.. wake me up when september ends.. dont phunk with my heart.. milkshake and some other songs.. only remind me of my lappie.. damn.. to think i even asked alvin to be more optimistic after he reformatted his lappie.. it's often easier said than done.. why cant i understand that then? now that mine is gone too.. i can feel the pain.. of losing something u love and treasure so much.. i certainly dont think this is a blessing in disguise..
hmm.. haiz.. i dui bu qi my lappie.. i dont wanna spend money on its operation.. haha.. i m crazy..
there's always a time and place for everything.. i think i haven drill that into me yetz..
hmm.. was so crazy that.. i asked 2 of them.. what is their impression of me.. hmm.. it's a weird question to ask.. i dont know what was in my mind then.. juz knew.. it isnt right of me to do so.. hmm..
hmm.. i want to blog in chinese.. but.. my sis's lappie's configuration is weird.. cant even see what r those characters to choose from.. hmm.. haiz.. blog tt when i have my lappie back.. haizz..
hmm..
znew left a note @19:40
Thursday, November 17
hmm.. had a fruitful day.. first to kbox.. then to eat 'aj ice'.. movie and a lil shopping at j8.. haha..on kbox.. we sang it at ang mo kio.. the waiter is a freak! he's a total freak.. reallie.. he said.. 'xiao jie.. take a break.. eat first..' what the.. i wanna sing cannot arh? then.. he came in again.. serving weiling and i our delifrance.. hmm.. he said.. 'xiao jie.. ni bu yao chi arh? bu yao chi deng xia wo chi liao hor..' i dun wanna cont.. coz i think i will curse.. hahaha.. our k-ing session wasnt as great as the first one.. haha.. it was still great.. i enjoyed myself.. too bad.. no shan hu hai.. no jay's new songs.. no stefanie's new songs.. onli saw first day and perfect day.. hahahaha.. but we sang songs we din sing the previous time.. like jeff zhang.. and we even sang ye3 ju2 hua1.. hmm..
hmm.. went j8 to watch just like heaven.. not bad.. hmm.. haha.. but the plot os quite predictable.. nice still.. romantic.. what was even more touching was that.. an old couple was watching the movie as well.. but the lady seem unable to understand the story perhaps due to language barrier.. so ah gong was kinda translating for her.. oh manz.. soo sweet.. hmm.. haiz.. haha.. i wonder if i will walk into a cinema with my future husband when we are in our late 50s.. hmm..
went home.. on the way home.. true yoga called.. saying one of their members invited me for a trial session.. hmm.. i wonder who.. haha.. but i din agree to any session.. hmm.. then.. sim lim called.. quoting a grand 350 for the recovery of my datas.. what the F*ck.. after much bargaining and pleading.. it dropped to 120.. still.. it's steep.. and.. hmm.. the fact that they can quote such high price initially really disgust me.. it juz goes to show that they are over-charging.. out to KILL.. hmm.. haiz..
i m still thinking if i should recover the datas.. hmm.. gonna call ibm tmr.. lied to the uncles.. told them my parents arent home.. so i cant make a decision.. will give them my reply tmr.. that was a lie.. hahaha.. ibm is in changi industrial park!!! hmm.. haiz..
what a day..
juz told my parents.. but i din tell them the price.. haiz.. hmm.. is it worth it?
znew left a note @21:50
Wednesday, November 16
my lappy is under observation at sim lim now.. it fell seriously ill all of a sudden.. now it's like a vegetable.. brain-dead.. but physically alive.. soo.. hmm.. yah.. haiz..i dunnoe what happened.. it was ok in the morning.. then.. i shut it down.. then.. when i tried to switch it on to transfer songs to my sis.. it couldnt boot.. hmm.. i dunnoe if it's coz i tried installing norton goback yesterday.. but installation failed leh.. hmm.. then i cancelled.. i supposed it was ok.. i even did virus and spyware scan.. hmm.. dunnoe lar..
hmm.. haiz.. so i went school in hope that 8 flags could do it.. but.. they cant! all they can do is reformatting.. at a cost.. which i might as well do it myself since it's juz loading cds.. haha.. what i wanted was data recovery.. haiz.. so went hall to get the webcam cd and met alvin to go sim lim.. yes! back to sim lim.. where i went in the morning to send my hard disk for data recovery.. haiz.. going sim lim is not smth good.. hahaha.. coz.. means ur pc gort problem.. hmm..
hate visiting the same place twice in a day.. sim lim and orchard plaza today.. the latter was running errand for my parents..
what a bad day..
hmm.. came home.. in hope of having a good rest.. but had to do like.. 20+ embroideries.. haiz.. so was doing them.. and was so bored that i showed alvin the process of the whole thing through webcam.. hahaha.. yes.. i was that bored..
haha.. sianz..
my lappie's brain is in ICU..
goin kbox tmr.. hope it'll be fun..
znew left a note @23:00
我又回来了..突然想记下一些想法..所以又来了..
我想..是时候学习何时闭嘴..何时开口说话..说话时的内容..因为一个人的谈吐将决定那关键性的第一印象..常常想..我说话是否该婉转一点..毕竟已经不是十多岁的人了..因该要先思考才开口..才行动..
因该再有内涵一点..可是没灵感了..
znew left a note @01:03
Tuesday, November 15
hmm... finally managed to post those pics.. coz infrared port down.. used bluetooth to transfer the pics over from my phone.. regretted not upgrading then.. to built-in bluetooth and dvd-rw drive.. coz can juz back up my whole mp3s folder into 1 dvd.. now.. i cant.. hmm.. nway.. those pics were my dinners for 2 days.. and choc fondue at haagen-dazs on mon..hmm.. went a few places on mon.. a nice evening spent talking to a friend.. hmm.. first to bedok blk 85.. then to upper east coast.. next to siglap.. and off to holland v.. hmm.. i love the feeling u get from siglap and holland v.. u dont feel like u r in singapore.. there's this european air in siglap.. and.. u feel as if u r in hk when u r in holland v.. it could be due to the layout of the place.. holland v is 'hilly'.. and the restaurants are small.. hmm.. in fact they are shophouses.. haha.. okie.. yes.. my next destination to makan and chill would be holland v.. hahaha.. hasnt been there for quite some time.. hmm..
serangoon garden is a nice place too.. hmm.. hahaha.. perhaps the company does make a difference.. haha..
hmm.. slept at almost 0700 this morning.. wonder how the 2 of us survived the night.. hahaha.. we talked through.. about a number of things.. hmm.. been talking to people lately.. hahaha..
hmm.. she asked.. do i think the group of us is too close.. hmm.. i wonder.. i dont know.. hmm..
hmm.. as in.. aiyar.. i dont know what i m talking..
planned to go sim lim today.. in the end.. i din.. was too lazy.. haha.. so lazed my day away.. haha.. life is good slacking.. though there are times when u dont know what to do.. juz laze around on ur bed.. and time will pass really fast.. hmm.. okie.. shall bring my darling hard disk to see doctor tomorrow.. haha..
hmm.. i love impersonating my belongings.. my ipod mini.. my lappie.. my hard disk.. they are like my dearest darlings.. hahaha.. call me psycho.. i dont give a *amn..
hmm.. i think this entry is super incoherent.. haha.. perhaps u will be completely puzzled after reading this entry.. and conclude that my entry is not making any sense.. hahaha..
byeee..
znew left a note @18:56
played mahjong with A29 today.. haha.. i concluded.. after so many games of mahjong.. i m bound to lose money on the table.. haa.. but it's okie.. this kind of thing.. sure gort ppl win and others lose one mah.. so take it lor.. it's the process.. not the outcome that matters..went chomp chomp to have dinner.. took a few pics.. gonna post here soon..
then.. to our shock.. weiling actuallie stayed on.. hahaha.. okie.. so we went over to grapevine.. to chill.. bridged and played lame games.. mich and des's gf, jasmine, joined us and we played improvised old maid.. haha.. it was fun.. really.. had a good laugh..
hmmm.. now weiling is at my place.. watchin tv.. i m gonna sleep.. more details in my next entry..
i m feeling lost after ending 5 papers.. i m so inconfident..
i dunnoe what to do with my time sometimes..
znew left a note @03:58
toast with chunky..
znew left a note @03:46
chicken chop.. main course..
znew left a note @02:30
chunky!!! soup for my full course western dinner..
znew left a note @02:30
i cooked this too.. soup.. with pork balls.. cabbage.. nice!
znew left a note @02:27
my dinner tt day.. i cooked it.. canned food with egg stir-fried in my cooker
znew left a note @02:25
ice cream balls.. hahaha.. looked like those balls for steamboat..
znew left a note @02:24
choc fondue at haagen dazs..
znew left a note @02:23
Sunday, November 13
hmm.. went town again this afternoon.. first destination to wheelock.. coz i read in the papers.. apple and birkenstock are having sales.. so went there in hope of having a good catch.. hmm.. of course.. it turned out that.. there's nothing on sales! hmm.. weird.. funny.. the papers lied to me.. bwahahaha.. i mean.. the advertisement..hmm.. so went to walk around in far east.. yesterday's not considered shopping.. coz i din comb the shops.. bwahaha.. so went with my sis to comb the area thoroughly.. like what we always did.. bought a pair of pumps.. haha.. i wonder why i bought them when i seldom wear them.. the white embroidery one.. i think i wore it twice only.. waste money hor.. hahaha.. hmm.. but.. the pumps are nice.. brown.. i shall post a pic of it here.. =]..
hmm.. tried a few lantern skirts.. hmm.. think i m more or less set on buying the light turqoise one from purpur.. hmm.. not bad lar.. i mean.. i need a skirt to match the pumps! haha.. wanted to buy accessories.. hmm.. din buy any in the end.. hmm..
haha.. hmm.. we went ps after far east.. took bus though.. was so tired.. hmm.. went ebase to try this aladdin three quarts.. we just mixed and matched the clothes inside.. turned out nicE! haha.. forgot to take a pic.. hmm.. the pants are cool.. soo cool that i bet i wont wear it more than 5 times.. hahaha.. but really nice.. perhaps i should go another outlet to try.. and take pic of it.. bwahaha..
wasted a whole 12 bucks in arcade.. in our attempts to win.. psp.. ipod nano and ipod photo.. hahaha.. yah.. were playing those games where u get to win the prizes.. hmm.. perhaps i should get more people to play! haha.. if only i knew of this earlier.. so we could have gone to play that instead.. soo exciting..
hmm.. very tired.. but still downloading some burner.. the pre-installed burner seems unable to burn vcd.. sian.. i desperately need to burn them as vcd and delete the files.. coz my hard disk is suffocating.. hahaha..
tomorrow is yet another day.. i shall slack.. and bring my darling hard disk to sim lim to see doctor.. then i can have all my stuffs back.. yes..
nitez..
znew left a note @00:47
Friday, November 11
hmm.. only 1 more to go.. but i m not confident of all the other 5 papers attempted at all..hmm.. perhaps i should just forget about it.. and.. cheong for the last paper.. econs.. it could be the best grade i could get among the 6 modules i did this sem.. what a joke.. it's an elective.. hahaha..
hmm.. went town after paper.. had lunch at some fish-n-co-alike place.. hmm.. the food is not too bad.. just that.. all along i din quite like fish-n-co.. soo.. ya.. call me weird.. haha.. wanted to watch exocism of emily rose.. but we went to box office too late.. left with first row seats only.. so walked to heeren instead.. met lu zhi along the way..
hmm.. walking along town.. it's been some time since i did that.. haha.. about 2 weeks? hahaha.. okie.. scold me..
hmm.. i want to go bangkok desperately.. but doubt i will be able to make it.. all thanks to avian flu.. what the.. spoilt it all.. i wanna go bangkok!!! coz.. i can have my whole wardrobe! hahaha.. yes.. things are bloody cheap over there..
hmm.. dun see the point why i should let those shopkeepers earn money by buying those cheap thai goods when i can fly over to buy them myself.. and enjoy their delicious food.. i wanna go bangkok..
hmm.. i think i m getting irritating.. bwahahaha..
feeling empty after papers.. after not watching tv for abt 2 weeks.. i still din watch alot of tv today.. not like what i planned to..
hmm.. haha.. i dunnoe what i m typing..
znew left a note @21:20
Thursday, November 10
it's almost 5.. macdonald's breakfast delivery is available.. haha.. but i m not that crazy.. hmm.. i m very high now.. cant sleep.. as much as my back is aching away.. hmm.. not that i m moody.. just that.. hmm.. i m flooded with alot of feelings now.. talked to a few people today.. hmm.. about alot of things..mainly.. LOVE..
hmm.. one of them commented that i have very -ve view abt love. hmm.. it's not me.. it's.. how the others has portrayed love to me.. i truly believe that there's someone out there.. whom god has assigned his heart to me.. so for all those who are out of love.. or yearning for someone.. do remember this at the back of ur mind.. this person do exist.. u may say i m naive.. hmm.. but i chose to believe things this way..
hmm.. i m high.. haha.. talked to tian abt nationals.. the horrible incident that changed my life.. about judo.. and realised how much we actually miss judo.. yes.. i do miss trainings.. even though they are insane most of the times.. perhaps we are crazy people who love to be tortured.. we talked.. from.. 3+ till now..
hmm.. hope that those 2 friends are feeling much better by now.. hmm.. sometimes.. u cant make it out of the well on ur own.. seek your friends for help.. true friends are those who dont mind u sharing ur problems with them even at their busiest time.. really.. they will be glad to be able to be there when you need them.. speaking from the bottom of my heart..
sometimes.. my intuitions can get really accurate.. so accurate that i dont dare to tell another person what they are.. hmm.. it worked a few times.. incl the horrible incident.. hmm.. i can see something.. yet.. i have to pretend to be ignorant.. haha.. it's fun doing it.. isnt it.. just a terrible feeling.. of knowing something.. yet not being able to disclose it.. coz i dont wanna be involved in the matter in any way.. i m sick of those moments.. haha.. oh yea.. dont try to dig anything out of me.. i wont say..
i was said to be a straight person.. i think i am.. perhaps.. i hasnt been making new friends.. perhaps.. i have been groomed in the kind of environment that i do not feel the need to be sensitive to others' feelings.. yes.. perhaps i should heed my friend's advice and take a step back before saying or doing anything.. spend some time thinking through before execution.. hmmm.. i shall.. if not the list of people i have offended would be countless..
hmm.. i m thinking.. and truly analysing if i m a straight person.. or am i just rash.. hmm.. there is a difference..
arghh.. my neck is aching..
yet i have not met my target.. haha.. yes.. spent so much time chatting to people that i din finish what i wanted to.. but i have no regrets.. coz.. i know.. these are the people who will be there for me when i need them later in life.. not the equations.. even if they wont be.. i m contented and happy just to make someone's day.. even if it takes to be a clown or joker.. coz.. seeing the one u love[as a friend] happy.. u will be happy too.. i m a simple person.. hahaha.. as if.. i dont know.. how abt tagging to answer me?
to a friend.. there are qualities in you that others look for.. they yearn for.. so be more positive.. and answer urself truly what makes u the person u are now.. why are there buddies who stood by your side no matter what happens if you do not possess any qualities.. there's bound to be some positive ones.. no matter how bad a guy u had been..
u had been a great friend.. lending me ur listening ear/screen.. hmm.. reallie.. rendering your help as and when someone needs it.. that shows that u r not selfish.. and.. you showed that you care alot about your friends.. so u r caring.. u r sensitive to how the other party feels at that certain pt in life.. u r si4 xin1.. hmm.. so be more positive ya? u r amiable.. realliee.. there must be something in you that draws others to u.. and make them your friends.. =] and not enemies..
hmm.. hmm.. my eyes are tired.. yet i hasnt finish.. sheesh.. perhaps i shall sleep now.. it's 0500.. i think we are crazy.. hmm..
i m gonna sleep..
znew left a note @05:00
Wednesday, November 9
hmm.. i dont know what happened to me lately.. hmm.. cant seems to do things the right way.. the way they should be done.. i m doomed.. everything is gone for me.. i knew first class honours is out for me long ago.. n i can feel myself losing 2nd upper as well.. oh no.. what's happening to me? hmm.. things shouldnt be the way they are now.. hmm.. 一失足成千古恨.. 这句话好真..time for me to wake up.. will someone wake me up? it seems that i cant feel the urgency.. i know time is not on my side.. i know i need to concentrate more.. i know i should be doing that and not this.. but.. i just cant put them into practice..
i made alot of mistakes lately.. so many that i dont even dare to count.. dont even dare to think..
我很怕..我真的很怕..
又有多少人能了解我现在的感受..
刚才有想哭的冲动..眼泪已经在眼眶里准备待续..它们随时都能出发..越过双颊..直达下巴..可是..自己却死命地忍住..
我就是那么不想哭..
znew left a note @15:21
Monday, November 7
3 down.. 2(1) more to go.. yar.. dont have any good feeling at all for the whole of the exam period.. damn nua now.. dun feel like doing anything..my body is tired.. my eyelids are heavy.. yet when i try to sleep.. i cant.. hmm.. haiz..
chui3 arh.. that's one new word i learnt.. karma.. lanlan.. hmm.. wow.. jargons?!?!?!
hmm.. haiz.. i think i made alot of stupid mistakes for this examination period..
found the korean pronouciation lyrics for 2 of the full house's songs.. haha.. so happy..
hmm.. i m just wasting time here.. 4 more days.. to my freedom.. hahaha..
we're going mich's place.. yes..
i m gonna colour my hair..
the feeling of not going home for the whole week is weird..
i miss my bed..
perhaps that's why i couldnt sleep.. as much as i want to..
byee..
i m juz waiting for time to pass.. so that the heater will be on.. so that i can have a hot shower..
coz the room is so bloody hot and stuffy..
i m getting vulgar and violent as the days passed by.. perhaps coz stress is building up..
i need training..
hmm..
hahahahahahaha..
znew left a note @17:20
Friday, November 4
i think i always fail to think before doing something.. i am a rash person..hmm.. i would like to apologise to a friend.. i kicked her feet today.. i did it in a spite of anger.. i regretted.. deeply regretted doing so.. always like that.. did things out of rashness.. only to regret it later.. hmm.. when will i wake up.. haiz.. time to grow..
hmm.. went jp after 'studying' today.. haha.. met chenglong!! then after parting with chenglong.. i saw weehowe!! so the three of us chatted.. while weiling n peylun were searchin for jay's new cd.. chatted for awhile.. den cds were sold out.. so we went b1.. bid goodbye with the 2 guys.. so coincidental.. haha.. chenglong is in ocs.. he will only complete in march.. he kept saying v.long v.long.. but actuallie.. very fast one right? haha.. okie.. so we're gonna have 2 outings in december.. 1 for our class only.. and the other.. we'll be going chow's place to celebrate xmas! hmm.. still thinkin abt the other one.. if my parents allow me to go bangkok.. then.. too bad.. i'll be going bkk..
hmm.. weiling suggested us goin on tour together next may-july.. i dont mind.. i think i met the right group of people.. nice and friendly.. interesting.. i m lucky to be in the same tutorial group as them.. i mean.. uni students are more muggish.. and i m glad that i have found a group of people who dont forget to have fun in the process of seeking knowledge.. they are a lovable lot.. haha.. let's hope they read this.. hahaha.. i m not lying.. really.. i really appreciate them.. i m a lucky girl.. =]
hmm.. where to go next yr? hongkong? taiwan? i dont mind both.. haha.. korea also okie.. but would prefer hongkong and taiwan.. coz we can then go on free&easy and have lotsa fun roaming the place on our own.. for korea.. we gotta go with tour group.. coz we dont understand the language.. haha.. yah lor.. hmm..
haha.. sian..
2 down.. 3(4) more to go..
yes! 7 days later from now.. i'll be havoc-ing..
znew left a note @20:30
Thursday, November 3
从来没尝过醋的滋味 原来醋是酸的哈哈
珊瑚海很好听
海鸟跟鱼相爱是一场意外
因为它们活在两个截然不同的世界
一次偶然的相遇 使它们爱上彼此
却不知它们会爱的很辛苦
现实世界中 或许也有类似的情侣
他们还抱着希望 疏不知 他们的恋情无法持续
也许他们只渴望曾经拥有
不在乎天长地久
爱情就像沙雕 一旦被损坏 有裂痕
无论怎么努力地修复 也是无法还原
znew left a note @14:00
my rice cooker! ji tech..
znew left a note @00:23
took this pic a few months back.. realie love it..
znew left a note @00:05
我又来了..是的..因为我读不下书..看来我的computing也是chui3的..哈哈hmm.. i love jay's new song.. duet.. 珊瑚海.. was singing it with tian juz now.. haha.. yes.. we k-ed in our room! so fun and exciting.. haha.. yeah.. probably too bored after maths today.. it drained alot of my energy.. reallie.. no mood to study.. felt sleepy and all.. haha.. what am i doing.. wake up, wenlin..
hmm.. the song is difficult to sing.. the pitches clash.. haha.. so u gotta cover ur ear and ignore the other person's tone.. keep to yours.. haha.. as if i m a pro..
hmm.. i dont know what to type here.. 最近没有什么感触..
sometimes.. when someone is feeling down.. as a friend.. 你的一些小举动足以让他们从谷底爬起..现在就开始注意你关心的人最近是不是心情不是很好..现在就让他们知道他们不是一个人..他们身边还有很多很关心他们的人..让他们有活下去的意志力..
也许你认为写那封信只是举手之劳..对他们而言..那相对于雪中送炭..他们会无比地感动..
i dont think i m making any sense..
我好像在胡言乱语..
znew left a note @00:02
Wednesday, November 2
new addition to my board. tt's lyrics of ???..
znew left a note @23:49
cant study now.. hahaha.. that's why i m here.. once again.. hasnt been blogging.. din have any entry yesterday.. coz was desperately mugging maths.. on maths.. die le.. reallie.. my maths paper.. it's not tough.. it's juz me.. cant seem to recall the appropriate formula to apply.. yes.. know the exact method and way of solving the question.. juz not able to.. hmm.. sian lar..
trying to study computing now.. paper next mon.. still gotta cheong effective communication later.. no time to study le.. haiz.. why din i start earlier.. yes.. 早知如此又何必当初呢！
很闷啊！为什么我们要读书？哈哈..
该读书了..
znew left a note @15:56
Tuesday, November 1
人总喜欢胡思乱想.. 往往我们不是在幻想未来会多完美.. 而是世界有多黑暗.. 为什么我们总爱往坏的方向想.. 每件事总有两面.. 看开点吧..不喜欢看见周围的朋友不开心.. 总尝试许多办法让他们察觉世界是温暖的.. 人间是充满希望的.. 让他们看见曙光.. 就算他们不想去寻找曙光，我也会将那道光带到他们面前。
我的快乐源至你的快乐，朋友..
人生短暂，希望我们能充分利用时间，现在就去完成一些想做却还没做的事情。
现在就孝顺父母多一点，对朋友说你很关心他，找老朋友叙旧，完成自己的梦想，别等到无法实现这些愿望的时候才来后悔为何当初没有这么做。