Monday, October 31
roses.. they r dying.. taken on the 4th day..
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Sunday, October 30
hmm.. fallin in love with e zuo ju zhi wen!! oh manz.. hmm..a friend commented that i type whatever i think of here.. hmm.. not organised i supposed.. incoherent.. yea.. incoherent is the word to describe the entries..
dad is sending me to hall afterwards.. so i can afford to watch the 5th episode.. hmm.. nice of him to offer that.. haha.. nway i din go ubi on fri.. haha.. yea.. no car.. nway i think it's kind of overboard to ask for a car for 20th bday.. hmm.. moreover i hasnt pass.. haha.. hmm.. nvm.. 19 dec.. hmm.. yesterday we talked about cars after dinner at geylang.. colt.. colt plus.. jazz.. fit.. murano.. chevrolet.. kelisa.. suzuki swift!!! yes!! haha.. he said tt car is nice! hmmm..
hmm.. sian sia.. supposed to study now.. cant bring myself to concentrate.. haha.. sis wanna use my lappie.. byeee..
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swensen's ice cream cake! =]
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kent ridge..
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after supper.. in sheares common area..
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our dinner.. it's family platter..
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the cake.. blueberry!!
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the watch they bought.. =]
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5 of us.. the so-called family photo by jon.. hahaha..
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Saturday, October 29
the entry i typed juz now was gone.. thot i saved it as draft.. haiz.. heck.. shall juz regurgitate them again..hm.. was quite sian on thurs morn.. probably coz i slept at 4am.. hmm.. so dragged myself to revision and lects.. then i learnt that 2 of my frens' grandma passed away on the same night.. how depressing.. hmm.. ya.. haiz.. i cant imagine how i would react if the same thing happen to me.. *touch wood* i dont want.. hmm.. they bought me a cake.. but couldnt celebrate it for fear that the 'red' and 'white' will clash.. hmm.. heyz.. it's okie.. i understand.. hmm.. i appreciate the idea.. really..
so left for hall.. went to take a nap and watched e zuo ju zhi wen episode 3.. hmm.. was msg-ing dt that i wld be goin her hall to stayover.. and asked her to get lq along.. din know they were together.. she lied to me.. sayin she will ask lq when her lesson wld end then.. haha.. okie.. tt's not a lie actually.. hmm.. so was watching.. and waiting for si to come.. coz de 3 of us were supposed to go out.. hmm.. so finally she came knockin on the door.. and i think they wanted me to open the door myself.. too bad.. i was soo sian that i juz asked her to open the door herself.. haha.. sorry girl.. spoilt the thing alittle.. but i was still taken aback when i saw lq and dt also.. oh manz.. thanks babes.. thank you for taking such hassles to travel into ntu.. we talked alot over the cake.. soo fulll.. it was a swensen ice cream cake.. each of us gort a big share.. hahaha.. nicee!!! and si n tian bought a bouquet of roses.. 20 stalks.. yellow and dark red.. soo pretty.. they are sitting in my room now.. shld have taken a pic of the roses before i left the room that day.. forgot to.. hmm.. and we forgot to take a grp pic.. forever.. we always forget to take a grp pic.. hahaha.. yes.. everytime..
si left for home and tian left to study with her classmates at 6+.. while the 3 of us left for jp and then to nus kent ridge.. dt's hall.. it was nice catching up with them.. nice to see them again after so long.. oh manz..
so was in dt's room.. and we asked ame, ml and em out for supper at sheares.. good supper we had.. met polo benjamin n another guy.. hmm.. we chatted over the naan.. haha.. niceee..
went dt's room.. attempted to study computin.. ended up watchin the 3rd episode of e zuo ju zhi wen.. haha.. then we slept at 3+.. the ppl in the hall were so crazy.. the guys were cursing away in the common area opposite her room.. and at 3+.. so many rooms were still lighted up.. woke uo at 8+ and took a cab back to ntu hall.. packed.. and left for home.. so shagged..
hmm.. came home.. slacked.. watched tv.. went town with mum to run errand.. yepz.. saw a kelisa.. the owner pasted a 13pax sticker.. hahahaha.. hmmm.. once again prompted my mum for a caR! she kept saying not so soon.. worse.. today.. she said buy new car everyday is equivalent to losing money everyday.. hmmm.. but i want a car.. hahaha..
went bugis to get my sleevebag and met yingjie to get my blemish control gel.. hope it works.. coz i have a realli big one on my forehead now.. hmm..
waited and waited for sms to come in to tell me where exactly i m supposed to meet hi5.. finally.. yepz..
we went east coast park.. the original plan was to eat seafood.. but then.. they dont know which one to go to.. so we ended up at marina cove.. jon had the intention to try this hawaiian bbq.. but we din.. we had kenny rogers roasters instead.. hmm.. haha.. shld have let him have his bbq.. coz it was 1-for-1.. which means.. 10 per pax.. buffet.. hahaha.. sorry!
hmm.. we were waiting for ed to reach someone near us.. so we can fetch him.. haiz.. quite cham for him to have function.. hmm.. still we managed to pick him up at raffles place.. and we went china sq central.. spinelli.. we had our cake there.. and lots of fun.. haha.. they have me a swatch watch for my bday! thanks dudes.. they told me the story of getting the present.. coz they planned to get the white adidas one on last fri.. but i wore it out when i went nat lib with seng.. so they dropped the idea.. then wanted to buy shoes also.. but cantonese have a saying that u cant give shoes as a present.. so they bought the swatch watch instead.. the watch comes with a pretty case.. so pretty that jon posed with it.. hahaha..
hmm.. then we went es's place for mahjong.. overnight mahjong.. wanted to teach ed how to play.. but he doesnt want to.. felt quite bad.. coz he was like left alone playing ps2 and pc when we were playing.. haiz.. next time muz reallie think of activities all of us can play.. oh!!! uno stacko! risk! monopoly! twister!
hmm.. played till my chips were all gone.. haha.. went geylang with seng n jon to eat tau huay.. then sent seng home.. was afraid tt jon may fall asleep while driving.. so went with him.. hmm..
my mum thought i wasnt supposed to be home for the night.. and locked me outsidE! had to call my sis to open the door for me.. hahaha..
woke up at 12 today.. did nothing!!!
went shopping at ps.. hahaha..
bought a pair of pants.. from.. ip zone.. new from baleno/ebase/s&k kingdom.. they are a grp!
enough.. shall talk abt feelins in my next entry.. =]
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Thursday, October 27
也许一开始就是个错误..在二十岁生日来临前先做个反省..回想起过去十九年的生活..柔道占了我好一段时间..也许正因为如此，我特别珍惜与思，恬 和 wini 在一起的欢乐时光..就算只是促膝谈心，聊的也只是一些芝麻绿豆的小事，我也会笑着告别，因为我并没有虚度光阴..
这十九年来，经过风风雨雨，从中也吸取了许多宝贵的经验。如果能从新来过，我也选择做回现在的我，因为那些失败，我才能够成长。
那晚在msn聊天时，想到这句话..其实人可以过着很单纯的生活，偏偏人类总希望人生能精彩些，但却忘了在寻找的过程中也是会受伤的。
很真吗？
我也这么认为。
人类的欲望永远无法满足，他们只会要求更多，我想得寸进尺因该形容得很贴切吧。
凌晨四点钟，我还不想睡。
黑眼圈越来越深。
眼袋越来越大。
感觉好象熊猫。
单纯究竟是种美德还是...
我还在寻找答案..
旁观者清，当事者迷，这句话一点也没错。
我已把自己从局势中抽离..
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Wednesday, October 26
不是每件事都得说出来..不是每次知道多点是种优点..多看多听未必是好事..有时会不经意注意，听到或看到一些自己不该或不想知道的事物..所以我说瞎子与聋子其实是种幸福..就因为他们看得少，听得少，烦恼相对也减少了。可是有朋友却反驳我这一番话，她认为他们是不幸的因为，他们在烦恼时无法向他人倾诉。我们总这样以为着，却苦苦无法知道他们内心深处的感受。也许他们正嘲笑着我们，在歧视这群不懂得珍惜眼前人，我们口中所谓的正常人。有的时候很想简简单单的生活，偏偏我们不能安分守己，总希望人生能精彩些。也许正因为如此，我们往往会忽略一些生活上的小细节，也许正因为所以，不小心伤了身边的至亲密友也不知。我为他们感到悲哀。
如果你常读我的博克的话，请你别被我的内容或心情影响，那份责任我担担不起。也希望你不要从我的言语中寻找透漏我现在心情的蛛丝马迹，真的没这个必要，也找不到，你还是将那时间花在较实际的事物上吧..
我的心情随着文字的增加越来越沉重，是时候停止了，是时候返回真实的世界了。
再见..
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Tuesday, October 25
hmm... isnt the light essential? by the way.. the table is super messy..
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it's dark without the light..
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it is not always right that you feel better after saying things out.. hmm.. coz there are things you cant say.. things you want to keep within yourself.. they are your inner most secrets.. those only you want yourself to know and it's sufficient.. however.. when things accumulate.. you feel like you cant hold onto them anymore.. you need a channel.. hmm.. sadly to say.. you arent prepared to say anything.. hmm.. hmm.. i m having weird feelings lately..
feeling of being left out..
but i always try to look at the bright side of life..
hmm.. coz i know there are always others who care for me.. hmm.. yes.. i know..
cheryl has roadshow on sat.. but i dont think i will be going to support her.. coz having exams real sooon.. like less than 10days.. so probably will get my sis to go down since her friend will support her cousin-chengxi..
hmm.. i dunnoe why i m feeling this way.. hmm... something is very wrong with me..
i cant always demand so much from people..
hmm.. physics quiz is tomorrow.. what am i doing here..
should i go home on thurs? hmm.. feel like.. so tempting.. but.. fri how? come back for an hour's lecture? but it seems important.. coz it's de last lect..
hmm.. how? shld i go shopping tmr? den can buy lantern skirt to wear to sch on thurs! haha.. i m crazy..
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this was the postcard i took pic of.. a few days ago..
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LDMR sets in..
i m inefficient again.. this is what happened when u have a 'new' blog.. then you will keep on posting entries.. yes.. who cares who are those who read this blog.. all you want to do is rambling on and on.. hahaha..suddenly think my font size is too small.. heck.. it's not even the smallest..
i shall try to sound more profound in my entries.. they shall have depth..
hmm..
hmm..
whenever i m feeling down or sick of this world.. i would look at the photos i pasted next to my board.. they are pictures of the people i love.. the people who will stand by me.. the people who will show their love and concern.. they are the greatest pal.. i regret not printing out dt, lq and xh's pics.. and also cheryl's.. how i miss their faces.. can only look them up in my hp.. coz those taken by camera are in the hard disk that broke down.. hmm.. i will recover the data inside at all cost.. yes.. coz they are oh-so-important to me.. hmm.. from sec1-j2.. oh manz.. how can i just dump those wonderful moments.. there are pics i took during the hk trip.. during macau.. during prom.. during all those memorable events.. they are part of my growing up process.. 不是说放下就能放下的..
i often wonder what will become of me after i graduate from NTU-EEE.. be an engineer? i wont be doing that for long.. cant imagine myself doing that for the rest of my life.. perhaps only gonna work for 5 years.. i hope.. then i can be an entrepreneur.. haha.. and where is the one for me? hmm.. i m waiting patiently for the man to appear.. if it's meant to be.. it will be.. if it isnt.. it wont be.. 缘分该来时会来，是你的就是你的，不是你的也末强求..
we have this crazy dream.. i m referring to my classmates and i.. the waffle at jp's prima deli is soo delicious and popular that we want to learn the recipe of the mixture.. and open a stall in canteen A.. haha.. sounds crazy doesnt it? hmm.. but i feel that it's a lucrative business.. always think i seem to have what it takes to be a businesswoman.. but i dont wanna study business now.. if not i wont be in NTU.. will most prob be in SMU given the vicinity.. haha..
time to head back to my books..
ta-ke-o: chicken in korean..
rei: yes in korean..
a-ni-shio: zhi dao le in korean..
go go jiayou: aza aza fighting [do not pronounce f]
falling in love with a foreign language all over again...
still prefer japanese..
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ya.. my messy table..
wenz took at shot
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i took a pic of my board using my hp.. too bored..
wenz took at shot
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恋爱ing..的歌词
陪你熬夜 聊天到爆肝也没关系陪你逛街 逛成扁平足也没关系
超感谢你 让我重生整个 o-r-z
让我重新认识 l-o-v-e
l-o-v-e! l-o-v-e!
恋爱ing happy-ing
心情就像是 座上一台喷射机
恋爱ing 改变-ing
改变了黄昏 黎明 有你都心跳到不行
（黄昏 黎明 整个都恋爱ing)
你是空气 但是好闻胜过了空气
你是阳光 但是却能照进半夜里
水能载舟 也能煮粥 喂饱了生命
你就是维他命 l-o-v-e
l-o-v-e! l-o-v-e!
未来某年某月某日某秒某人某地某种永远的心情
不会忘记此刻 l-o-v-e
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Monday, October 24
恋爱ing..
i love the lyrics.. nonsensical.. but it reflects the 心情 youngsters have..we were talking about clubbing during maths lecture.. hmm.. so those who club frequently can tell who are the newbies.. who are those who go there for experience.. and they operate like hunters.. oh manz.. sound terrible.. seriously.. hmm.. perhaps that's their way of life.. 凡事都有第一次.. 只希望我的那一次是美好的.. ya.. i shall try clubbing after exams.. with tian, si, wini and 四大美女.. hmm..
hmm.. i cant find the drive to move on.. i cant find the motivation to study.. will someone help me please..
hmm.. saw star idol cheng xi today.. he looks better inperson.. in cap.. i dont know if it's him actuallie.. but the guy i met looks good..
was disappointed when cheryl told me abt another star idol guy.. haiz.. 为什么这样子..
haha.. goin for my dinner now..
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stupid me..
yes.. how wonderful.. i brought my camera without bringing my cable!!! yes.. so evem if i take pics now.. i cant upload them.. so no photos for these entries.. haiz.. was so excited.. now.. haiz.. took a pic of my board.. yea.. my beautiful board.. love it.. coz there are photos.. postcards.. lyrics.. and the dreadful calendar..sometimes.. i hate myself for doing certain things.. i just dun understand why i m doing them..
hmm.. in hall now.. dad n mum sent me in.. it's a miracle.. in fact.. 2 miracles.. coz it's the first time they are sending me here.. and the first time i m here on sun.. wanted sis to drive me here.. but she doesnt want to.. so dad asked me to take cab here if i m too lazy.. but i dont want to waste the money.. he volunteered to sponsor.. but i still dont want to..
so after taking my shower at 7+.. he asked me to go hall later.. he will send me in.. so.. yea!!!
hmm.. miracle isnt it? they always asked me to take cab..
i m even happier when they said something.. when we were in hall's carpark.. he asked.. if i could park at the hall if i drive to sch.. and is it for free.. haha.. is that a hint?
alexandra!! ubi!!
hmm.. friday.. going out with hi5.. yes.. them again.. haha.. it seems like a bi-weekly event.. we're meeting up very often after my jc.. i dont know why.. perhaps we started to treasure each other more.. i love their company.. i mean.. we can go totally crazy.. cant wait to get my license.. so i can bring them out for a ride in my parents' car.. ya.. if not.. i feel bad making them sitting at the back of jon's vehicle.. hmm..
hahaha.. i m not making sense in all my entries..
it's tiring to maintain 2 blogs.. anyway the other one is locked.. so i can list names.. haha.. not as if i did..
byeee..
aza aza fighting!
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Sunday, October 23
slack..
yes.. i m here again.. i'll be here whenever i dont feel like studying.. that will be so often.. cant stand myself..anyway.. finally managed to upload the music to iwebtunes to have it playing here.. nice isnt it? it's called i think i love you.. from the soundtrack of the korean drama.. full house.. i strongly recommend that show.. not the typical korean drama.. okie.. there are tears.. but at least it's not too draggy.. rain is so cute inside..
i want my boyfriend to have a build similar to his.. haha.. ya.. i dont like skinny guys.. i want some flesh on them.. oh manz.. sounds weird.. haha.. but heck.. hmm.. i love the way he smiles.. the way he behaves when he's shy.. he doesnt dare to declare his love for zhi-en.. even though he knows that he cant afford to lose her.. so after losing her once.. he became more appreciative of her.. and eventually.. plucked up enough courage to propose to her.. haha.. oh manz.. i love the way they interact.. yes.. haha.. i m going gaga over the show.. hahaha..
aza-aza fighting..
perhaps only those who watched the show in korean knows what it means..
haha.. i didnt do anything much again today..
thinking of what to get for myself for bday.. hmm..
hmm.. i reallie wish my parents would bring me to ubi/alexandra area on fri/sat.. haha.. that's where all the showrooms are!!! yes.. i want a suzuki swift.. a red one.. but doubt they will get that.. coz they would want to drive the car occasionally when they do not need to drive the big grandis.. [more fuel-economical]... hmm.. so probably will be a toyota vios/honda city/mitsubishi lancer.. a car enough for us to drive.. and presentable enough for a guy like my dad to drive once in a while...
haha.. going hall later.. dad is sending me there.. yes.. for the first time..
30days till the day i move out of my hall.. i think..
hmm.. what if the transfer fails? *touch wood*
hmm.. i wanr my license!!!
hmm.. for those having relationship problems.. 一切随缘吧.. 万事不可强求..
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Saturday, October 22
trip to national library
went national library today with seng.. went to L15.. yes.. that tall.. Lee Kong Chian Reference Library.. funny why they control the amt of materials we can bring into the library anyway.. they offered lotsa tables and chairs.. but they are not maximised.. so i wasnt allowed to bring my physics notes in.. luckily i brought my lappie along.. and the lecture notes are inside.. so at least i can write notes based on the softcopy.. lame lar.. the group of girls near us had tys with them.. what the..met bballer adeline in the library anyway..
the view from my seat was fabulous.. overlooked esplanade and its bay.. you can call it seaview.. to my left is suntec city.. so marina mandarin, pan pacific, swissotel were all around.. the only thing that spoils it all was the block of flats right in front of my face.. and behind me was kallang river.. so i could see oasis.. yepz.. nice view..
hmm.. din achieve much today.. staying in hall or at home is still a better choice.. yar.. i need to finish another 5sets of notes i think.. damn.. stoned alot in the library today.. alot of things went through my mind..
the different system between NUS and NTU.. i m glad i m in NTU.. at least i have a fixed tutorial class.. so i can make friends with them.. and not feel lonely in school.. oh manz.. i dont know how i would be able to survive in NUS.. maybe i can stick with dt and qr.. but i supposed we cant stick together for all 4 years.. especially when we need to choose our majors.. enough of that.. hm.. NTU is a pleasant place.. even though the admin sux.. coz they dun give us any study breaks.. still.. i love my tutorial class.. yar.. i think it's hard to find such a good mix of people in the same tutorial group.. i thank god for that.. =]
after learning how much probs my friends are having with their relationships.. hm.. i realised happiness doesnt come that easily.. indeed.. when all is well.. both parties are happy together.. when something happens.. it may hurt both parties.. it takes alot to maintain.. i always admire those couples who can stay together so lovingly.. i realised how much it takes for my parents to come together.. especially it's 24years of their marriage life now.. it's not easy being a parent.. i think i can appreciate my parents even more now..
cancelling our trip to taiwan/hongkong.. changed to bangkok.. told mum yesterday.. all she said was thailand gort bird flu.. haha.. heck lar..
hmm.. i officially have another month to the day i need to move out of my hall.. sianz.. staying hall has its own pros and cons.. but a car is more lucrative.. i think i mentioned it in my previous entry.. hm.. hahaha.. doubt they will buy a car anytime soon.. haha.. but i want to drive to school!! hahaha.. pleasee..
hmm.. so full now.. gotta bath liao.. shall go back hall tmr..
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等待
等待是个非常痛苦的过程..身边有个朋友，每天在倒数着..不管是谁看了都会心疼..这样一天一天的过日子，就像是把日历一张张地撕下..
是否曾想过..有这个必要吗？
那些在服兵役的朋友，是否想过女友是怎么过日子的。也许她们也在月历上倒数着，那一天能在见到你..
难道...
心中有许多话要说，却又不知该从何说起..
看完浪漫满屋了..别于一般韩剧..这部戏较轻松..原来爱情会悄悄降临..原来爱并不是拥有..
智恩-英宰-民赫-惠媛..错综复杂的关系
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Friday, October 21
revived..
decided to start the blog all over again.. so.. hmm.. now i have 3 blogs running.. 1 for nationals and judo only.. wow.. and the other is locked.. so no one can view it.. haha..blogging is just my way of rambling about things..
i love rambling on and on..
the entries are not going to make any sense.. yepz.. totally incoherent..
exams is coming.. ya.. starting nov 2.. and i am still blogging here.. die.. hmm.. haiz.. guess i gotta remove my lappy from my sight.. then will i be able to study in peace.. haha.. yes.. even lappie is a distraction to me now..
doing up my blog.. not gonna spend a great deal of time.. just gonna get a skin and that's it.. will do up skins for my blog after exams..
there's a whole list of things to do after exams...
- cheryl's fanclub's webpage..
- probably a blog as well.. for her to communicate with her fans
- si's cross stitch
- camp at mich's place.. haha..
- suntanning!
- driving.. i will get my license this time..
- what else?
hmm.. haha.. i did a stupid thing today during lecture.. i drew the bird's eye view of grandis and mich drew that of cefiro.. so we were asking the others to choose a seat! haha.. yea.. totally crazy..
i want my license so desperately..
i want a car also.. that's probably i dont really feel like staying hall..
staying hall isnt that bad afterall.. yepz.. after you get to know the people.. hall life can be enjoyable..
at least that's what i feel now..
but a car is more lucrative..
no guarantee.. i din ask.. coz i am afraid i will be disappointed..
still.. i hope.. my dream.. will come true..
haiz.. COE prices rose.. decrease my chance of getting the car any time soon...
mum shocked me today.. she kept on talking about cars to me.. and COE.. oh manz.. is that a hint? hmmmm....
i wonder what it implies..
life sux.. i am looking forward to the end of exams..
actually.. i meant 11nov.. bwahaha..
cant wait..
i took pic of this postcard yesterday.. loved it..